Korean performance never fails to entertain me.

Maknae Performance (Taemin, Sulli, Chansung, Jiyoung, Lizzy, Mir, Seohyun) - Circus

Update.

Decided to take a short holiday back to Msia on the 25th Nov. Just gonna spent the weekend there. It's been 10 months since I went back Puchong. I missed the food and my friends there. *sigh. 3 days isn't enough for me to catch up with my friends, furthermore I'll need to change my IC too. So much to do, so little time.

Anyway this time I'm going to buy presents for each of my (close) friends. This is seriously harder than I've expected. First I'll need to list down some names, think of my budget, and begun some serious thinking about what to get for them. I can buy some Merlion back for them but seriously that's totally useless and meaningless. So I wanted to get them something they will like and of good use too. Asked some opinion from my supervisor and she ended up saying :'Having too many friends is not a good thing too.' HAHAHAHA. Oh well, now I've already settle 5 out of 7 presents. The reminder is a challenge for me. I doubt I can get them what they actually need. Oh please don't expect too much from me. *headache.

Been sleeping lesser and lesser each day, so it's getting hard to stay attentive in class. Either I'll dozed off or my eyes and thoughts wander away. Worst, I've pon IBM today. OMG. Maybe working really drains out all my energy. So restless nowadays. I looked more like a 31 y/o woman than a 21 y/o.

Oh I got to go now. Need to take a nap first before my sis come back after her O's. I need to meet her up for dinner since my mum went for holiday at Korea and my dad went Msia to golf.

PS: I have weird dreams every night. If I were to blog them out, it will takes me 3 days 3 night to type all of it into words.

And each night I'll have several dreams that I'll remember a bit of each even after I wake up.

Heard that having dreams makes you feel exhausted even after you been sleeping for 8 hours.

And by the look of my condition, even a 24hours sleep won't work for me. *sigh

On rainy days.

I'm not a fan of beast but still, this is a song I like to listen to when I'm down. Super like I swear. *smiles.

Oh, I'm here to post about school.

Done with the first week of school. Since lessons started last Thursday, I'll mark it as the first day of the week and my week ends on Wednesday which is today. Tomorrow will be my second week in school. LOL.

Well, school is just so .. school. Wake up early, go to lectures, bored, finish lecture, home. Nothing much to say. Oh the modules I'm taking are Principles of Banking and Finance (pbf), Auditing and assurance, Macroeconomics, Corporate Finance (cf), lastly IBM. Been though all the first lectures and got shocked that Auditing is all theory-based w/o much calculation. Didn't expect that seriously. And while cf is about calculating ARR, IRR payback period and NPV. I thought cf would be more to the theory side cause it's finance but nope. Maybe is just calculation for the first few chapters but er idk yet. Oh well whatever.

3 hours lecture for all modules is really too much for me. Feel so hungry after the first 3 hours and before the next lecture I've only had a 30 mins break. Hate Monday and Thursday as I'll be having 2 lectures per day. All my lectures start at 8.30 in the morning and I have to wake up at 6am. So tiring! So school ends approximately ard 3pm on Monday and Thursday, and 11.30am on Tuesday. You think I'll be happy after school ends? No. The war begins after school ends, cause the bus stop will be super crowded that even if the bus arrive you may not be able to board it. Seriously very frustrating.

Anyway, the most packed lecture theatre (lt) will be the cf class. Heard there's 170+ students. Have to reach the lt earlier in order to have the best seats (which is not directly under the air-con or too in front). Luckily I have carmel with me for all my lectures at least I'm not alone.

Okay, done updating. Gonna do some readings. Byeeeeee!

PS: I need more clothes for school!

2PM. I'm your man.

Too much sexiness to handle, especially the tie part!

Kan mi yeon's going crazy.

The guy being tied up is Leejoon while Mir is the one rapping. Take a look at the engsub, the lyrics reminds me of you. It's scary how they can sing it in a song. Mir rapping this makes the girl look more pathetic. But he's really hot in it.



This is the 'live' and I love the way Mir and Kan mi yeon interact during the rap.

PS: I love her short hair too! Maybe I should cut mine soon. In another 2 years?

First day of school.

Tired to the max. Period. :x

PS: I'll update tomorrow since there's no school.

mblaq!

The one crying at 0:15 is Lee Joon. Even though my biased is CheonDung but LeeJoon is fking hot when he's crying. His voive is effing sexyyy too. *screams.

The first one who said 'mblaq' is G.O. Then first to dance in the middle is SeungHo. Then comes LeeJoon and after him is CheonDung. Mir is the rapper than starts rapping at 2:21. He's the cutest guy I've ever seen!

School today.

It's been 5 months since the last time I went to sim. So went to school today for the bloody contract. Been told that it only takes 5-10 mins to sign but ended up waiting 1.5 hours for my turn. WTH!!mailto:WTH!!!@#$%%$#@!!#$%@#@!

Then after the contract thingy went to CCK with meichyi and had pastamania and gongcha for lunch before going back home. Napped for 2 hours and went JP to work. Just reached home and finished bathing and dinner/supper, finally had the time to blog today. See I've told you I'll blog often nowadays! *proud!

Oh anyway, I'm going to sleep soon cause seriously didn't slept well last night and woke up super early today. Tomorrow mark the last day of my freedom, gonna enjoy my day! Night readers!

PS: Everyone says meichyi and me look alike, but when we look at each other on the face, I don't see my features on her face and vice versa. So how in the end we're alike?Hmmmmp.

Second post for the day!

to make up all the disappearing post for this few months. Not disappearing but the lack of posts. ._. Just finished doing my new blogskin. Instead of the grey background now I've changed to white so it won't look that emo anymore. IMMA HAPPY GIRL!! No more gloomy days. (I hope.) Well, it's a short post here, I'm going to have dinner now.

PS: I'm thinking of another url.

School starting soon.

Gonna go school tomorrow to sign something so that I'll be able to attend class on Thursday. Kinda lame and i don't understand why they wants us to travel all the way down to school instead of letting us sign when school starts. Totally a waste of time and money. Anyway, holiday passes really fast and now it's time to study! omfg! 4 months gone just like that. *sian.

Oh well since school gonna starts soon, I got a feeling I'll update my blog often. This long holiday is making me lazy and other than slacking at home watching dramas and working, I don't feel like using my brain for other purposes such as blogging and revising IBM. as if all that dramas and work is making me think, but hell NO! Heh heh.

Aiyo..... Got the feeling of changing my blog url again. This blog is so dry and dead. Maybe I should change the whole blogskin too. oh okay, since i've decided to change everything, I'll do it now before i change my mind. Heh heh.

PS: MBLAQ is damn fking hot! *random.

Untitled.

Result released on the 2nd of August and to be frank it was somehow exactly like what I've expected. Failed my IBM the rest all pass. Gonna retake IBM for year2 again. Decided to take BSc Banking and Finance with carmel. We took the same modules and bid for the same lectures. Ended up taking Principles of Banking and Finance, Macroeconomics, Corporate Finance, and Auditing. Will be attending lessons on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. 5 lectures all in 3 days. Heh heh.

School gonna start on the 22nd of September. 1 more month away from now. Felt so tired while working. Shall not elaborate more here. *sigh.

PS: I must learn how to treat myself better.

Random thought.

I miss my short hair. *sigh.

I'm still not over him yet!

Love this the most!! When can I stop thinking about him?? *love sigh.

The smile makes me smile for the whole day.

Awwwww. :/

PS: I'm not in the mood to blog about recent happenings so bye people! Will try to be back soon.

PPS: This is from Dream High!

KIM SOO HYUN!

Scream** Can't find any other guy cuter than him! Cute face, nice voice, great in dancing, and is really silly! Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww~

Things will change.

The feelings for you is gone now. But the feeling when I'm listening to this song won't change. I'm in love with this singer, khalil 方大同. The sweet and simple feeling, do you feel that too?

xianwen's late bday update! and a little of other stuffs!

25th June is xianwen's birthday celebration party at dhoby ghaut! Her actual birthday is on the 26th. So this is some group photo we took while we're there.

My clique of friends! From the left to right, marian, zhiping, carmen, me, xianwen, cheryl, peggy, qilu and jacelyn!


individual shot!

me with make up. look quite weird huh?

my new flats. very classy and elegant. HAHAHA.

I love AB (artbox). LOL. my work uniform.

Last but not least, xiaoyuan with me! She been sleeping with me for the past 1 week. Everyday before we sleep we always talk till one of us drop dead. HAHAHA. Don't know why we have so much to say. The last day she sleep with me, we talk for the whole night till 6am! I've never talk to the same person for so long before, from the moment we're awake till 6am man! This is taken at MBS. Notice my long bangs? Gonna trim them soon. Teehee.

Sorry for the short update! I'm gonna eat dinner soon. Byeeeee!

PS: I've changed my blog url again.

I've spent more time working than sleeping nowadays.

So I'll try to enjoy work to feel happy everyday! *smiles.

But working at Artbox can be very tiring also. The first reason is the long working hours (from 12pm-10pm++ or sometimes 12pm-5pm), even though we can have 1 or 2 meals in between but standing for so long even my feet scream in protest! No leaning on walls and strictly no sitting inside the shop. Not really complaining but this is really the most tiring job I've ever did. Never mind the mentally and physically tiredness, the second reason is due to weird customers that ask questions and always ignored us when we tried to serve them. Excuse me, I have feelings too if you realised! And don't ask me why is our things so expensive, I'm not the one who set the price. Don't complain it to me, I can't change anything anyway. !@#$#@$!$@#@!#!#!@#!!!! And the worst thing that happen to me during work is a weird middle-aged uncle walk in to our shop without wearing any pants! Just a long tee with underwear. Tsk tsk tsk. Dirty old man! Maybe he thought me and li li will scream or shout since the whole shop is empty except for the 2 of us and him. But we continued with our work and acted busy to even look at him. What's wrong with uncles nowadays? *shakes head. Unbelievable this type of things will happen in a shopping mall in Singapore. LOL. But on the other side ..... there's this super chio bu guy that came into our shop and OMFG! the way he talks and blinks his eyes makes all my bones go soft and almost stop my heart from beating. WOW! Now I know what they meant by dazzling eyes. He's really a gentleman with all the manners and the way he talks is so gentle. Makes you think all those guys who talks loudly sounds like swearing rudely. Oh, back to topic, the third reason is because I've only got 1-2 days off in a week and I normally have to work at 12pm which means I have to wake up around 10am. Too early, too early. The forth reason is there's people stealing from our shop! Walao eh! Here is Singapore eh! Don't you realised how risky it is to steal in such a small country with no where to hide? LOL. This is a very serious problem as we will have to pay for all the 'disappeared' items with our money. Fifth reason is I'm so bored of eating in jp now. Everyday have to think of how to settle my meals and fill up my stomach.

But still work can be fun because I got to know lots of people in jp. I've never had lots of friends when I'm in Msia, but now ... I have quite a large clique of friends from sim and now from artbox too. I thought I'm that kind of people that would rather stay at home and watch pps than going out with friends. But now I'll go out with friends almost every week when I have a day off. What changes me? Idk. Anyway I'm content with my life now.

Oh, wonder why I'm blogging now at this time? Because finally I'm having a day off this week. HAHAHAHA. After working for 6 days straight, tomorrow I'll sleep till my stomach become untolerable hungry. And after waking and eating I'll have to go shopping and search for a new shoes that can match with the dress xw lend me to go to her birthday party this Saturday. Time pass so fast, it's almost end of June now. Pay day is coming nearer! Luckily I have a choice to choose if I want CPF or not. With CPF, my pay will be lower. I NEED CASH NOW, can't risk to 'save' my pay for the future.

PS: Seriously I love my life now. With all the laughs and tiredness during work makes my life feels so whole. Teehee.

You took my heart but luckily I've got it back.

I know I can't take one more step towards you
'Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?
You lost the love I loved the most

And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

...

When I'm all bored and have no one to talk to,

I'll blog. HAHAHA.

There's a lot need to be updated but my brain doesn't seem to have the extra space to remember all the details. ): Hates to blog when I've neglect my blog for long and need to recall everything. Too bad I just don't have the America time to blog everyday. And worst, my lappy is getting older and slower every single day. Makes blogging a tedious thing to do! ._.

And oh, xianwen's birthday is coming and she's gonna celebrate it on the day before which is 25th this month. Just realised it clash on the day of my high sch gathering. But of course with so much work I won't be able to go back malaysia and gather with them. Ohya, my NS friends are also gathering together on the 3rd July. Won't be going back either. *sigh. Lost the passion about going back to malaysia. I wonder why~

Btw, xiaoyuan is staying with me, sharing my bed too. So lucky I'm not studying oversea alone without my family. At least I don't need to worry about finding a place to stay.

PS: I need to put on braces ASAP! *desperate.

背叛

The song that reflect my feeling now. Deep inside I'll still mind but on the second thought why should I? I'm just pure disappointed I guess because I just can't squeeze out a single tear to prove I'm sad or hurt. Maybe I should say you caught me by surprise. Didn't know you'll do this to me like any other guy, but you delayed till a year later. I didn't choose this song because I felt you betrayed me, is because the feeling I felt when I first heard this with you. Is the same feeling I'm feeling now. The dead and gone feeling. You're right, you'll never changed, I've think too highly of myself like any other stupid girl.

PS: If I were to see you again, I want to tell you this straight in your face, 'Heys, I don't love you anymore.'

Struggling hard.

Is really busy with work nowadays. Finally had a day off today thus I'm blogging now to update about my recent life. Gonna work tomorrow from 5pm-10pm and Saturday 12pm-10pm. Seriously I don't think my legs can support my weight for such a long time without sitting so I'm trying to cut some fats now to lighten the work of my poor legs. Doubt I've have muscles soon! *mad worrying! But at least I have a job and very soon I'll have my first income! I've never really work after working as waitress when I'm around 16 or 17. HAHAHA. At least this is a easy job for me. All I have to do is smile and STAND for a few hours! But not a very high pay job though. Never mind, as long as there's no stress, no pressure, what's more can I demand? Ha ha ha.

Everyone around me is working so hard now so it's getting harder to find time and meet up with friends, but what's making it worst is the objection of my legs for walking. I can not imagine how I'm going to stand the pain of standing in the train back home after shopping before my legs finally snap into half. Sound exaggerating but it's true! Evident of getting older I think. *sigh.

Still thinking if I should take tuition as my other part time job. Teaching lower pri kids Chinese shouldn't be too hard for me but I'm afraid to cope with the stress and pressure from their parents. I'm not a good student so I doubt I can be a good teacher. LOL!

Parents are going back Msia soon and when they're back, it's meichyi's turn to go and she's bringing her carmen back with her to stay with us when she's coming back. Should be quite fun with her around but I'm going to be working madly to enjoy her holiday with her here! How sad.

WOW! This is a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong update. Didn't realised I have that much to be updated. And oh, I've dye my hair dark brown. Did I mention that? Think I look much younger with a dark coloured hair! (living in my own world). Teehee!

PS: You took all my memories away with you. Thanks and I owe you one.

Hello? Anyone there?

I doubt anyone will still pass by my blog again since I've been a very irresponsible blogger nowadays. Been really busy watching drama, reading novels, spending time with friends, shopping and now the latest update is working. HAHAHA. I've found a job at JP. Shall not say where thou. :x

Lots of things happened after finals ended, such as USS day, cousin's wedding, job searching, lots of sleeping and eating. HAHAHAHA. Will not upload any pichas as it can be found in my fb, shall not lag my lappy with excess uploading of pictures.

And oh, my hair is black dark drown now. Look better I think. *shiok sendiri. :D

PS: I'll update more often, I promised. *wink.

PEOPLE OF THE WORLD!I'M BACK!

Finally I've gone through hell and now is comfortably sitting in heaven. HAHAHA. Last paper for today was IBM and seriously took all my brain cells to complete the 4 questions (but I didn't managed to finsh all). I'll rather sit for 4 POA papers than 1 IBM paper. LOL, anyway the first thing I'm gonna do in this 4 months ++ holiday is to go Universal Studio Singapore tomorrow with my friendssss. Excited much LOL!

Not going to crap much as I'll have to sleep now. Gonna wake up early! I'M SOOOOOOOOOO FREAKING GLAD THAT I'VE FINISHED MY FINALS AND IS ENJOYING LIFE NOW WITH NO REGRETS!

Okay, crazy+hyper+excited girl is offing line now. BYE BYE! Will blog soon! Stay with me please!

PS: I'm indeed a happy happy girl! *smile.

One of my favourite songs nowadays.

藤井树-當冬夜漸暖



孫燕姿-當冬夜漸暖

But I like 孫燕姿 version more maybe it's because there's 宥勝. HAHAHA. Enjoy anw. (:

PS: The last 9 days!

Pretty nails.

Awwwww~ Makes me felt so loved!

Shhh. A picture speaks a thousand words. See my nails?! Oh, how I miss my tb hair style.

PS: Full credits to xianwen xiaojie! Totally love it!

PPS: Let me know if I ever cross your mind.

A trip back to 18 y/o.

Let all my thoughts rewind back to the time when I'm 18. Young but not energetic. I'm forever dull and dumb till now. HAHA.

After SPM that almost killed all my brain cells and that the sucky PLKN (national service in Msia. Army or whatever you called it) for 3 months (from Dec 07-Mar 08), I started my college life (Alevels) at Tarc with 2 of my besties. May intake, full of clever students unlike me. Took the sci combi which includes : Further Maths, Maths, Physics, Econs and GP. Stay in Setapak-PV6 for 2-3 months before shifting back home. Those few months staying there created a fresh new chapter in my life. Rented a room and share it with my 2 besties, living together with 7 other strangers (4 guys 3 girls) under 1 roof can be fun, exciting, and etc etc (you'll understand if you ever stay with friends before). HAHAHA. You won't want to know the whole story of how a girl live through her 6 months of stressful Alevels life right? So skipped off every details. But in the end, I gave up on Sci so I retake Alevels for the January intake but took the Arts combi this time : Econs, Maths, Accounting and GP. Much easier this time and guess what? I'm the CLASS REP. LOL LOL LOL! Long story about how I managed to became the useless class rep. Never know when class was canceled, never know when to hand in hw, never know where the classroom is, never know about any announcements and any tests date. But still, I managed to survive this 18 months of hell and now I'm a uni student.

3 years. 3 FREAKING YEARS. Time really flies. *thinking about my past again.

After 15 mins ...

Okay, done with all the flashbacks in my mind. Now back to blogging. Oh, went to JP Starbucks with xw and carmel today to revise. Quite productive, did 1 set of Stats past year. HAHAHA. No joke man, nowdays its getting harder and harder to concentrate on revising. Like now, I'm suppose to be revising but is blogging now. LMAO. Aiya, really gtg and start revising now, if not I'm gonna regret later, I'm so sure of it.

PS: I wonder if you're serious when you ask me that question that I took it as a joke.

Support my friend. 沈展宁.

The official MV.



The movie.

PS: He's the 男主角.

PPS: 我们的爱犯了什么错 不能向前 不能退后.

Spent more time thinking of a title than on the post itself, so untitled!

Alone searching for the right one.

Pon POA global lecture today. The lecturer is a Hongkonger and his voice is too monotone to keep me focus on his lecture. So yea, left halfway. Might not go school for his lecture tomorrow. He looked a bit gay though, with tight pants and slim legs. LOL.

Don't you think my eyes looked weird without wearing contacts? Seriously can not make it man! I need contacts! Heart my wavy hair! Random enough. Teehee!

PS: Girl, you're not alone.

Random day.

Hug, anyone?

Went for Econs local lecture today. Morning 8.30 as usual. After lec went JP and have lunch with my mum. Napped for 2 hours and watched Vampire Diaries season 2 while eating dinner. Now is almost 8pm and I still haven't start any revision. Siaaaaannnnnn! Gonna start doing Stats past year soon. Tomorrow class starts at 12pm. Gonna stay up later tonight to chiong my Stats.

PS: I felt happy today, no reason why though. :]

16 more days ...

to Finals.

*gulp. Had a heart-to-heart talk with my sis yesterday night. She reminds me of him when we're talking. All that heartaches that seem so long ago came back last night. I realised I'll still cry when I think of the past. The pain is unforgetable. But still, I'm glad it's all over now.

PS: Not everything is the more, the better. Including love.

I want to visit The Eiffel Tower before I die!

WOW! The 1000 foot tower. Wonder what will I see when I'm at the top of it?

The construction of the Eiffel Tower in France, 1900.

Can you imagine watching it as it get higher and higher?

Alexandre-Gustave Eiffel. The 53-year-old structural engineer was already appointed as France's "master builder in metal". December 15, 1832 – December 27, 1923 French structural engineer, architect, entrepreneur and specialist of metallic structures. Significant projects: Eiffel Tower, Structure for Statue of Liberty.

PS: My heart speaks the truth.

I'll find my own happiness.

I think I'm going to get train phobia very soon. Went back home by train yesterday and today. Clash with the peak hour on both day. Yesterday, just managed to squeeze in the train with xianwen, like tuna and I can't even look down and see my shoes. In this situation, I'm really lucky to have this height. If not, I don't even think I can breathe. And don't know what's wrong with the train today, just a stop distance of around 5 mins, it got delayed and it took at least 15-20 mins to reach the next station. It just stop there and keep announce that there's something wrong and they apologize for the delay. LOL. Plus the train keep jerking and swaying from left to right. Very scary! This is my first time got stucked in a train. Luckily I have xianwen with me, if not ... I can't imagine. ): I think I'm going to have Claustrophobia very soon. I'll panic inside me and I had to keep talking to stop myself from freaking myself out when I know I'm stuck in the train today. I think I started to have the fear of small space symptoms since I'm stucked in a jam for more than 2 hours. From then I've begun to fear of massive jam and sitting in the bus for long. I will felt as if I'm suffocating and I need to find something to distract me. I didn't know it was minor Claustrophobia until today. I thought I just hate to be in the jam, but now I know I cannot be in the jam. OMFG! Sounds so serious but I think I'm really suffering from this phobia. But is quite minor I think.

From Wikipedia: "Claustrophobia is typically thought to have two key symptoms: fear of restriction and fear of suffocation. A typical claustrophobic will fear restriction in at least one, if not several, of the following areas: small rooms, locked rooms, cars, tunnels, cellars, elevators, subway trains, caves, airplanes and crowded areas. Additionally, the fear of restriction can cause some claustrophobics to fear trivial matters such as sitting in a barber’s chair or waiting in line at a grocery store simply out of a fear of confinement to a single space.However, claustrophobics are not necessarily afraid of these areas themselves, but, rather, they fear what could happen to them should they become confined to an area. Often, when confined to an area, claustrophobics begin to fear suffocation, believing that there may be a lack of air in the area to which they are confined. Many claustrophobics remove clothing during attacks, believing it will relieve the symptoms. Any combination of the above symptoms can lead to severe panic attacks. However, most claustrophobics do everything in their power to avoid these situations. "

Maybe you may think I'm not that serious but I just realised I always ask someone 'how long will it takes to travel there?', 'will jam now ma?' when we're going somewhere by cab or bus. Did you realised? That's because I want to know how long I will need to stay in a small space. Shit! Sounds so serious suddenly. I think I'm afraid of sitting in the grand hall for long too. I just realised I didn't really want to give up my IBM and Econs during Prelims but I really don't feel like sitting in the hall for long. Even going for toilet will makes me feel better. At least I don't feel trapped. I need distractions to stop me from thinking that I'm in a enclosed area. Now I'm worried for my finals more. Hope I won't get freaked out and go out before I finished my paper. Shit shit shit!! Now I know why I always want to go to the toilet during jams or when I'm in the train. Because I need to escape the suffocating feeling. How am I going to travel to expo? *sigh. Gonna go with xianwen no matter what.

PS: This is a secret. Don't spread thanks.

Whatayya want from me?

He look cute with bangs! Don't you think so? *lovelove.

I PASSED PEEPS!

49/50! What more can I expect? HAHAHAHA.

Next is FTT (Final Theory Test a.k.a another theory test), pass that and practical then I've have a license and I can drive my dad's car!

And oh, I desperately need a BAG! Just found some nice tops in some blogshop! Bought 3 and I'm going broke soon.

Gtg, I need to revise Maths soon. HAHAHA.

PS: I'm a happy, happy girl. (:

I NEED LUCK!

Going to take my BTT tomorrow. * breathe in breathe out. For Msian : BTT (Basic theory test) is like undang test in Msia. But the passing marks is 45/50, unlike Msia 42/50 or is it 43?

So tonight I'll have to scarifice maths and read the BTT book again. I desperately need to pass la! I need a driving license here! I wanna drive! Didn't have the chance to drive in Msia even I've already had my driving license for 1 year ++ le. How sad. But after BTT there's FTT (Final theory test) then I'll get to take the practical test on the road. Sounds like a very long road ahead. *sigh!

PS: 说好的幸福呢?

Nothing lasts forever.

PS: I realised the longer I've wait, the lesser I want you. Bye love.

Looking back.

Perhaps I should really try one day before I leave this world.

PS: Everything have its ending but this is only the beginning.

...

Oh hey, I've been travelin' on this road too long

Just tryin' to find my way back home

But the old me's dead and gone

Dead and gone.

-Dead and gone.

Too many spammers.

So I removed my cbox. Irritating ttm.

Should be doing POA now but the mood to revise is gone. Gonna wait till guilt find me then I'll start again. So now I'll just slack around and waste time.

PS: You're not alone. I am.

I'm amazed that I'm still awake now.

HAHAHA. Listening to an old song and thinking about my past again. Just watched Taiwan drama that's why I'm still awake at this time. Hmm. Feeling random gonna say this out. Glad I have you as a friend that I can share my feeling with. Even though is not all my deepest feeling but still, you make my life in Sg much better. But I doubt you will see this post. LOL. Thanks carmel, for being my listener and for trusting me and tell me everything that you're feeling. Got to sleep now. Mad sleepy.

PS: I love my life.

PPS: You gave me a surprise that had me thinking for few nights before sleeping. Wondering what you meant by that. But I guess I will never know why.

What kind of genius would let perfection go?

PS: When can I stop having dreams about you?

I fall and cry ...

But I'll stand up by my own and be stronger.


"Watch me do it babe." I'll show you the wenqi you never know.

PS: Got back my POA and Stats Prelims result. Quite disappointed.

But at least its a major pass for both papers.

I was trying to start on my poa when ...

I heard this song from my mp3. Then tears flow down suddenly and I can't help it. The feeling attack me from inside that cause pain to my heart. This familiar feeling. How scary.

PS: Its just the lyrics not that some one.

There's a lot of thinking in my brain now ...

But I just can't find the right words to express it out. Should start doing POA now but with all the thinking in my mind, I can't concentrate. Thus this random blog post. If you think I'm going to pour everything out in this post, then you're wrong. I always keep stuffs inside me than telling out. No one can solve my own problems except myself. No point telling out and make everyone as miserable as me. But still, I'm a very good listener. Tell me everything babe! OH. Saw his fb photo just now. There's one pic that makes me look at it for more than 5 mins thinking bout our past. It's a photo of a perfume I gave him on his birthday 2 years ago. I would rather starve and save the money on him but now I think that was really way too stupid. wth was I thinking that time. 2 years ago when I was 19, I should have know we won't last. Well, no one really know the future. But I was certain we doesn't have any. LOL. Still ... *sigh. Glad I've being writing diary since I was 14 till now. Every time I looked back at my past, I know I'm growing up and becoming mature. All the idiot things I've did seem so carefree and fun. Can't do that now. Miss those days when we ran in the rain and play water fight. I'm still thinking of my past while I'm blogging this. I've lived for 20 ++ years and there's a lot of memories that still makes me smile or LOL. I wonder if I can remember all these when I'm old, perhaps when I'm 50, 60, 70 or 80. I don't wanna forget any of my past. Opps, a random post have became a long post now. Gtg le. POA screaming for me. Bye.

PS: Will there be something that will remind you of me?

Untitled.

Went Woodlands today to revise POA with carmel, peggy and zhi ping. Very productive as we were studying in the library. Can't chat a loud so we just concentrate doing POA. Heard that POA Prelims result reached school today. Really hope I can score well. If not. *sigh. Just realised its been some time since I blogged about my daily life. Doesn't seem to find the words to blog recently. Would rather wrote everything in to my diary and lock it up so that I know its safe in the locker. LOL. Anyway, just a short update. I'm going to sleep soon. Seriously both mental and physical me is tired. 5 hours of POA. Brain almost stop functioning now. Byebye readers.

PS: If I had you.

I'm lost in my own world.

I walked around trying to find a place where I can camouflage in without anyone realised I'm the extra one. I'm still finding, still searching ...

PS: DON'T ASSUME ANYTHING. THANKS.

Lame people do lame things.

Suddenly got the urge to badmouth people. Seldom do that in my blog but can't tahan it anymore. LOL. Hates people who ask stupid question and test my patient. Hates people who judge me by what I said and thinks badly of me. It's like wth? As if you're very great or flawless? Everyone have their own past and history right? Who never make mistake at all? Can't we just forgive and forget? Before you criticize others, why don't take a look at yourself and see if you're badmouthing yourself without you realising? Sometimes I really want to scream at them and say: HELLO? YOU THINK YOU NOT DOING THAT (the stuffs they complain about others) MEH? STILL SAY OTHER PEOPLE! But too bad in reality I'll never have the gut to say that. *sigh.

Sometimes I would rather keep everything inside me than telling it out and let them became swords that people use to stab my heart again. I may look like a happy girl from the outside but actually sometime I'm not happy at all. I have many stories in my life and mostly ended up becoming sad endings. Every time I think of them, it still hurt a bit but I know they will fade as time passes by. And every time I post emo status, people will ask and pretend to console me but actually I know they don't really care about my feelings (I mean some, not all. I still have friends that really cares *glad). They just wanna know what happen so that they can gossip behind my back and share the joke with their so-called friends during their lunch or dinner together. Why can't we just live in peace and stop hurting each other?

PS: I'm not refering to anyone in particular. If you think I'm talking about you, PLEASE REFLECT YOUR OWN BEHAVIOUR THEN.

PPS: I know I'm not a perfect girl but at least I'm not a bad girl or I'm trying not to be. HAHAHA. (:

Change of URL.

Just to stop others people from viewing my blog. Can't even blog little things because I know who will read and comment on my blog. LOL. You don't even know me well, but just because of what I blogged, you assume you understand me. WTF! What NONSENSE is that!! I can't stand it anymore. Got to sleep soon. If not I think I'll burst and swear all over my blog!

PS: 'I can be a good friend, or a bad enemy.' It's your decision.

We study hard. We play even harder!

THE DATING GURU!I wonder why they use guru. Isn't that Malay? LOL

Synopsis found on google. 'Cyrano Agency: The Dating Guru' is about four people from a theatre troupe who offer a unique cupid service for lovelorn clients. The company intricately devises and implements schemes, custom-tailored to match the interests of their intended target, for the ultimate goal of obtaining romance for their client. The boss and mastermind behind the agency is Byung-Hoon (Uhm Tae-Woong). Things take a strange twist at the Cyrano Agency when a new client named Sang-Yong (Daniel Choi) enters their office. Sang-Yong is a straight-laced financial trader who is rather inept with personal relationships. He has fallen for a free spirited woman named Hee-Joong (Lee Min-Jung) and seeks out the Cyrano Agency’s help. The boss for the Cyrano Agency, Byung-Hoon, then realises that Hee-Joong is his ex-girlfriend with whom he has really never gotten over.

Watched this movie after Econs lecture ended at 10.45am today, with cheryl, carmen, zhi ping, peggy and jacelyn. Was suppose to go woodlands to study but ended up watching this hilarious comedy+romance at Lot 1. A really very cute movie plus it's only $6 because of the student price. HOHOHOHO! The ending is really sweet and cute too. My rating: 4.5/5.

Tomorrow is going to be a tiring and boring day. Class starting from 3.30pm to 10.00pm. LOL. IBM some more. Sian ttm! But at least I can wake up late. HAHAHA. Oh man. How I miss those day when all I have to do is sleep, eat, play. *sign. All that day dreaming.

PS: I've permed my hair, the old wenqi is gone, gone, gone. Say 'HI' to the mature and old wenqi! LMAO!

If you think only boys can be cool and man ...

THEN YOU'RE WRONG! Take a look at this. OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG~ They're super super super hot!



They are MISSter! (ALL GIRLS OKAY!) WWWWWWWWoooooooooooooooooooTTTTTTTTTTT!

PS: 39 days.

Back and gone.

I realised I've lost the passion for blogging ever since Prelims came and ended. Had 1 week holiday before school starts again. Been watching Taiwan drama non-stop for the previous week. Next week school's starting and I need to 'chiong' for finals. Will blog as soon as I have the time. Finals coming in 43 days.

Okay done updating. Bye peeps! And good luck for those that will be getting their SPM result tomorrow!

PS: Maybe I will privatise my blog soon. (:

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PS: You're no longer the one my heart desire.

This blog is not dead yet.

But the the owner is going to be dead soon. :x

Finished 4 papers this week. Screwed 3 of them. IBM paper is on next week Friday. 1 more week to revise. After Econs (the first paper), felt so sian thus lost the mood to study the rest. Aiyo. Can someone please please motivate me?

After Maths paper on Thurday night, went home and relax till now. Played sdo, zuma, watched pps, shopping and doing nothing. And oh, I don't know why they even put both Stats and Maths paper from 7pm to 9pm on Tuesday and Thurday respectively, we're sooooooo freaking tired sitting for the paper and we have an early paper (Poa) the next day (Wednesday). Oh how great life is!

But the best part of all this Prelims thingy is I finally can tahan sleeping after 1am each night. Kinda became my habit now. But I'll wake up at 11am the next day. Hmm slept for almost 10 hours?or perhaps more. If you know me, you'll know what's my normal sleeping time. (:

Aiyo. Don't feel like blogging but I haven't been updating it for so long I'm afraid after 3 years when I look back at my blog, I realized I don't have a life when Prelims's here. So yea~ I DO HAVE A LIFE.

OK. DONE UPDATING. BYE BYE READER! I'LL BE BACK SOON

PS: I'm playing neopets now. HAHAHA. Kinda fun again!

*scream!*

I fall in love with him the moment I saw him playing piano 8 years ago AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!



And oh, did I mention I'm giving up on my Prelims? Yups. The life of a (Prelims coming in 34hours) student is watching youtube and singing with Jay Chou! Cheers for Jolin too!

PS: <说好的幸福呢> reminds me of you, cousin. R.I.P

This is the life of a (prelims-coming-in-6-days) student.

My messy table. I need 2 tables to put all my notes!

Been doing Stats from 5pm till now. Can't take it anymore, hence this blog post. HAHAHA. To let my mind rest and relax for awhile.

Oh, there's only 2 words to describe a student's life when exams are coming, which is NO LIFE! I've cut down a lot of my leisure time such as no zuma, no sdo, no reading of novels, less blogging, less online, less listen to songs, less eating, less sleeping and less shopping. But more books, more exercises, more notes, more thinking, more group studying, more library, more headaches, more gastric and more money (due to the reduction of shopping)!

So Prelims is starting on Monday. Wish me lucks peeps! Bye!

PS: Other than breathing, the thing I did the most everyday is missing you.

Nightmare.

Awwwww. He won't be the nightmare if I'll ever dream of him, even if he tries to kill me. I don't mind dying if it's his eyes the last thing I see. *melts x infinity. And oh, is that Jay Chow at 0:27? HAHAHAHA.

How depressed can one get?

Maybe is because of Prelims. Maybe is because of the sore throat. Maybe is because of the negative thoughts I have in my mind. Maybe is because of the POA lecture tomorrow morning. Maybe is because of ...

There's plenty of reasons for me to feel depress but I hope its not because of you.

PS: I don't even know if I'm doing the right thing now.

I'm going to be back when Prelims's over.

Been revising everyday. Don't even have time to blog. So yea~ Bye readers, if there's any. (:



PS: This song reminds me of the past, my past. ):

The one who sings love song straight into my heart.

If I ever meet a guy like Bruno Mars, trust me, I won't let him go.

Be brave, my love.

Wanna see something cool?

HAHAHAHAHA. Finally I'm back to blogging now!! But prelims is coming soon so I'll make this post short and sweet. Gonna blog about my last week in 1 post. So lazy to elaborate so its not very detail. Anyway, here come some pics to remind me of what I've did for the past week.

29.01.11 Saturday.

Watched The Green Hornet at Bugis Iluma, Iluma Bugis whatever you call it. HAHAHA. Forced meichyi to accompany me watch for the second time because she went to watch with her friend first and I wanted so much to watch it too!

She said its lame but I think its quite hilarious what. Maybe is because Jay chow's English really ... makes me LOL. But still need to *clap clap for him because at least I understand what he's saying.

After that movie, we walked around and guess what we saw???!!

Its ANTHONY NEELY!! IN BUGIS!! BUAHAHAHAHA. Can't describe how excited we both are when we saw his stage even before he arrive!! So we stood there waited like silly girls for 1 and a half hour for him and after he sung 2 songs, we left. HAHAHAHA.

He really super hot can!!

30.01.11 Sunday.

Went for Carmel's 21th birthday party at Costa Sands.

I've only got 1 pic here. HAHA. For more pics, please visit my facebook. (:

31.01.11 Monday.

Stay overnight at Costa Sands after the fun, full of laugh celebration. After leaving, went back Ipoh around 6pm and reached at 12am the next day. No jam totally.

01.02.11 Tuesday.

Had ntg to do actually. No wireless, no life. In the end, my cousin bought this monopoly to play and to pass time. HAHAHA. Remind me of our childhood days man. Msian people remember this?

And guess how much this thingy cost? RM 2.50!! OMFG! So cheap can. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

02.02.11 Tuesday to 06.02.11 Sunday.

Stay in Ipoh. Bored ttm! Back to Singapore on the Sunday. Woke at 4am to avoid the jam and yea, we certainly did!

Oh oh. Took this at Bidor when we're visiting my "da ah yi". XO steamboat. *Yummy.

07.02.11 Monday.

Yea. Back to school. Thanks xianwen for helping me apply this Katy Perry's edition nail polish!

Cracked nails. Cool right?


And this is the one xianwen help me do on Carmel birthday. Super nice. Awww. Why they can do nails so pretty but when I do it myself ... it sucks. )):

PS: 20 days. ):

How lucky can she be?

Awwwwww. Anthony Neely. *drools.

untitled.

Stop! I love you.

What's small, with rice and seaweed?

What's else? Is SUSHI!!!


Went Sakae Sushi yesterday with Carmel, qilu, zhi ping and jacelyn after our lecture and tutorial. HAHAHA. If you know me well, you should know I don't eat sushi because I don't like the rice. Too sticky. But LOTS, LOTS, LOTS of people super love to eat sushi around me. Wherever I am, I'm the only one that don't crave for sushi. HAHAHA. Even my family members love eating it too. That small, small cucumber with seaweed and rice is what I always eat. I dislike crabmeat too. ):

But its fun to eat with my friends because its fun seeing them eating while avoiding the camera. Just take a look at the photos we took that day and realised every one of it look so 'unglam'. So better don't upload them to preserve our nice, nice image. (((:

OH OH OH. What to wear for carmel 21th bday. The theme is hawaii, but I don't think I have anything hawaii to wear. Maybe I'll find something with lots of flowers and match it with a straw hat. Sounds hawaii? HAHAHA. I have 3 more days to prepare. Oh no oh no. After that party I'm going back Msia for CNY on Monday evening I think. Won't be going back KL but still to Ipoh. Mad sian. Can't even see evonne and chat with her. *sigh.

PS: I should have walk away.

You gave me roses, but I left them there to die.

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.

PS: But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right.

Back from Msia.

Went Msia after lecture on Friday and back on Saturday afternoon. Just for fun actually. Don't feel like staying in Sg so decide to follow my dad back because he need to do something there.

Not in the mood for blogging so ya, that's all for this post. I know I'm lazy because I haven't been doing any revision or doing my POA assignment which is due this Friday. Oh. I had good news. Next week is my CNY holiday. FOR 1 WHOLE WEEK!! HAHAHA. So just have to go for school for 5 days then wwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ I'm a free girl again. Well, I'm free now. Not much diff anyway, I'm in holiday mood now.

PS: Tell me why.

Time Slips to Nothing [Jack/Ianto - Jack POV]

1. Not Ready to Love (Rufus Wainwright)
I'm not ready to love.
I'm not ready to fly.
I'm giving up belief in the sky,
so you can take my seat.
In up above on high, say goodbye.


2. Astronaut (Terami Hirsch)
Been on a cruise in the heavens,
and how I flew.
Down on the earth, it was a little colder,
missing you.


3. Nothing Lasts Forever (Maroon 5)
Built a wall around my heart.
I'll never let it fall apart,
but strangely I wish secretly,
it would fall down while I'm asleep.


4. IOU One Galaxy (Ataris)
Gave you this I.O.U. today.
It said "Good for one galaxy."
Once I build my rocket to the stars,
we'll fly away just you and me.


5. When the World Ends (Dave Matthews Band)
You know when the world ends,
I'm gonna take you aside and say,
"Let's watch it fade away, fade away."
When the world's done, our's just begun.
It's done, our's just begun.


6. Universe (Savage Garden)
Cuddle up close, lay on my chest now.
Listen, my heartbeat's coming down.
If you get tired, you close your eyes now.
When you wake up, I won't be found.
'Cause I know, baby, I know you're the nervous kind
with so much going on in your mind.


7. Jealous of the Moon (Nickel Creek)
Staring down the stars, jealous of the moon.
You wish you could fly, but you're staying where you are.
There's nothing you can do if you're too scared to try.


8. Suspended (Matt Nathanson)
'Cause all I wanna be is the minute that you hold me in.
When you pretend that I'm all that you waited for.
Time slips to nothing and I'm better than I've ever been.
I'm suspended.


+ Those You've Known (Spring Awakening)
Those you've known and lost still walk behind you.
All alone, they linger 'til they find you.
Without them, the world grows dark around you,
and nothing is the same until you know that they have found you.

PS: I guess I'm still not ready for love.

My perfect nightmare.

PS: Keep telling myself that it's not worth it,
I already know I don't deserve it,
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting,
This is my perfect nightmare.

Medicine day.

Study Econ makes me sick. See all the medicine above? HAHAHA. From two different doc I've seen this week. Luckily I don't have any problem swallowing pills if not ... disaster man! But I'm not sure whether these medicine can be consume together. Opps. Hope they can be.

See the time I'm blogging you should have guess that I've PON again. This time is SSE. How many times I have ponteng because of not feeling well? Countless time man. :x Stupid and crazy and no self-control stomach. Grrr! I've drink a lot, a lot of water le! But still don't feel any better and I had to rush to the toilet more often than ever. *Headache. Oh. Must be I'm eating rubbish lately, such as M&M, Cadbury, Pringles, Snickers, my mum homemade agar-agar, and seaweed! HAHAHA. Does this consider as rubbish? But its soooo tempting lying innocently on the table for me.

Okay. Back to POA now. Had to force myself to finish the assignment for today since I'll be home the whole day. ):

PS: I'm craving for koi!

MC today.

Didn't go school today. Still not feeling well. Stomachache. Flu. Slight cough. So I did POA assignment the whole day but not very productive. SSE tomorrow, don't feel like going but I didn't have any more MC after today, so have to go which is really boring. Might go Far East with my friends if I feel better tomorrow. To shop for CNY clothes. Oh man. CNY is just 1 week away from now. And Prelims is another 1 month. But what am I doing here? Slacking, slacking, slacking.

Btw, I'm watching Harry Potter and the chamber of secret on HBO now. Very exciting though this is the N-times I've watched it. But to watch it on the TV is different from the disc. HAHAHA. Harry really looked super chubby and cute! But I seriously think Malfoy look better than Harry. (((:

Tomorrow is Thaipussam in Msia. But in Sg, there's no holiday! Sad. Don't understand why they don't celebrate Thaipussam here. Sg really have little holiday compared to Msia. *sigh. Singaporean must be really hardworking.

Heard something from a friend. You better get well soon. ._.

PS: Her skeleton will lie in the chamber forever.

Just like my love for you. Hidden well.

Belated love.

PS: Time, time, time. Fate. Gone.

Finally I'm back!

And now in my new house. HAHAHA. It's weird, moving from 15 floor to the 4th. Scenary changed, time taken in the lift shorten, and got my own room. Still not quite used to sleeping alone. HAHAHA. I have probia with sleeping alone. I'll wonder and imagine things. Super bad imagination. Had to listen to songs to stop my brain from that massive thinking.

Prelims coming soon. Next month so gonna start revising now. Can't waste any more time now. So byyyyeeee readers.

PS: Hush babe. I'm here. Always here.

Awkward day.

MY BLOODY PHONE RANG IN LECTURE TODAY AND WITHOUT ME TOUCHING! Oh man. Still couldn't figured it out how did that actually happen. All I wanna do is to take out my phone from my bag, then SUDDENLY, my ipod played! Super surprise can! First I thought is someone calling me. But nope, I'm on silent mode. Not alarm either. And while I'm thinking all this, the music continued to play ALOUD and I kept on pressing the wrong password! OMFG! SUPER AWKWARD CAN. Now I know why meichyi wanna exchange iphone case with me. She used that to case to school and her ipod went out of control too. LOL. I'm going to lower down my ipod volume in case this happens again.

Black suit me?

PS: Watching Harry Potter and the half-blood prince. Bought the DVD yesterday.

How I wish I could brew a love potion. HAHAHA.

The rain reminds me of you.

Still remember how we used to like the sound of the pouring rain?

Back to reality.

Have been watching The Vampire Diaries season 2 after I pon IBM tutorial yesterday. Menses attacked, making me weak so I escaped IBM and rest at home. Pon today because I'm tired, lazy, bored of stats and poa. Good decision anyway. Slept till 1pm just now and continue the marathon. HAHA. Almost finish episode 12 and have to wait for the next episode to release.

OMFG! Ian Somerhalder is so damn hoooooooooooooot! Looked so delicious and irresistible. HAHAHA. I seriously don't mind being bite and changed by him. To be dead and un-dead doesn't sounds too bad to me. At least I can stay young forever. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. PS: Ignore me, I'm going crazy soon.

Mum leaving Msia tonight. Reaching around 5am tomorrow. Finally there's someone to fetch me to school. I want to have my driving license FAST! Hates the morning buses.

PPS: The rain come and go whenever they like, stay as long as they wish, and leave when they're done.
And come back again anytime they want.

Just like you.

How could I've forgotten!

About my new year resolutions? Oh man. This further prove I'm getting older. *weeps.

Okay. Gonna list down some of my new resolutions now. It isn't too late right? Today is just 10 Jan. It's still NEW YEAR!! HAHAHA.

1. Study hard. (the usual, sian!)

2. Get a driving license in Sg! I've already got my Msia license but I can't use that to drive in Sg. And I doubt I still remember how to drive. HAHAHA.

3. Stop cutting my hair! Control, control, control!

4. Ask for more pocket money. ((((: This is crucial!! I have a lot of things on my wish list that I wanna buy!

5. Treats people the way they treats me. But no revenge. HAHAHA. No longer young and revenge sounds so evil!

6. Never complain about little bad things and enlarge them to make my life miserable. Smile more and think positive.

7. Stay young. At least look young. But think mature. **Important.

8. Find someone that deserve my love. Never ever go for puppy love again. (:

9. Stop hurting those I care.

10. Go for whatever I want. Don't wait till its gone then starts to regret.

Okay. That's all for this year! Hate to think of all this things I need to accomplish for the year! *Tiring.

And oh, this is my resolutions for 2010. Lets see if I've accomplished anything. XD

1. Got my licence first. The date for testing is on 12th this month, pray for me guys. GOT THAT! Can't tell you how hard I've pray!

2. Next, is to get a second-hand car. Need lots of thinking to persuade my dad that i'll be needing a car for 5 months only. i don't mind second-hand as long as it's not a kancil. == Oh. Failed.

3. Not going to look back, seriously, but don't force me to swear plsss. I can't bear not to miss him. Failed. *sigh

4. Maybe change my attitude a bit. Ya, but just a bit. I doubt so! XD

5. Study hard LOL, i am sure I'll need lots of motivation to push me. xD HAHAHAHA. MAJOR FAILED!!

6. Change my look, at least improve my black eyes circle a bit, or go get braces, cut my hair to layer and straighten again, and the most important thing to do is to change my taste for clothing. Gosh, i must be mature or at least look more mature a bit from now on. I'M 20 ALREADY!! Well, I did look a little different. But my black eyes circle ... *SIGH

7. Learn violin or continue piano. Perhaps this can change my look as in becoming more gentle?? Haahas. I doubt so. Yea! I doubt so. Didn't manage to learn anything.

8. Stop being so greedy. Self-control is very essential for this. =) I expect everyone knows that's hard right?? Oh man. FAILED!

So out of 8, I've failed doing 6. HAHAHA. Totally forgot about these resolutions after February! Hope I won't forget this year! XD

PS: I've stop wishing for you the moment you choose to turn away from me.

Teach me how to live.

PS: Thank you.

Black! My latest colour.

I'm waiting.

Hello peeps! Just dyed my hair brownish-black. Thought of dye-ing pure black but I'm afraid I might not look good in black. ): When is the last time my hair is black? Hmm, should be 3 years ago. Soooooo long ago man! Will take pic of my hair soon. HAHAHA. And oh, I even cut bangs! Trying to act young but failed I guess. LOL.

I miss being 17 y/o. When we were much younger and happier. When I still have you with me. When a smile from you could make me happy for a week. When we are 3.67m away in a classroom but not 367km away in 2 different countries. When those days were the worst because of SPM but I still felt happy, enjoying everyday in school, laughing, playing, running, scolding, crying. All these little things that make my life in the last year of my high school memorable. (:

PS: I still love the way you lie.

最好的我 ♥

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You don't know what I want.

So I'm telling you now.

Promise to love me, not forever because forever is too short. But promise to love me each and every day of our lives.

PS: I want you back. Can I?