Citc.

Tomorrow last paper for Maths~Applied. Tuesday going to Sg after my Econ paper at 11pm and back on Wednesday 2.30pm. Tiring but this is really important. *sign* Hope everything goes well on Wednesday.

Just back from Ipoh yesterday. Boring as usual. Hate going back that kampung place. Gross.

I should be happy that it is you who gave up on this relationship, not me. Cause I won't have such courage to leave you. You must really love me or hate me totally to make this decision. Nevermind. I don't feel like knowing it anymore. I've given you plenty of chances before and you still push me away now. I'll be happy without you. This is your choice. I'm really tired. Maybe after you saw this post you will not contact me anymore but I just want to say you really gave me a good relationship that I'll remembered it forever. Thanks and study hard. I won't say I'll love you forever because I finally realised it is meaningless to love a guy that you know, he won't love you back. But I'll admit I love you now. *lalalalala* :D

PS: Maybe I'm still waiting for you to turn back by writing this.♥

FML.

I hate my life being messed up and I can't control it. There is nothing I can do to change it and I don't know what I can do. Noone understands. I'm alone this time. :(

Fun. Fun. Fun.

Hmm. Should be a long post but I don't have much time to go into details. Nevermind. I'll try.

22.05.10
Was doing my Accounting pass year at 12 when bii suddenly ask me whether I want to watch movie with him. But I had tuition at 3.30pm. Anyway, I cancelled my tuition and rushed to IOI to catch a movie with him and soon loong. Watched 'Shrek forever after' with soon loong and bii. Thought it will be a boring movie but it ended out okay okay for me. Funny but childish. Haha. I'm already 20. How saddening. :(

That movie started at 2.30pm, ended at 4pm. Soon loong fetched me back first before fetching bii to tuition. I've reached home at 4.30. Slept awhile till 6.15pm (not awhile i know), bath and prepare to go Badminton with them.

Had lots of fun with soon loong, chia wei, siow kay, poh yee, weng yee, cally, wei yett and bii. Went to usj 19 badminton court to accompany them play. We reached at 7.40pm and played till 10pm. I don't like to perspire so I just sat at a corner and watch. After that went yam cha with them. Reached home at 11.50pm i think. Tired but fun. :D

But I didn't study at all. OMG~ That's why I need time now. Bye readers. Enjoy your Sunday. I'm going to 'enjoy' it with my Accounting passyear. Teehee.

Singer : S.H.E
Title : Ni Bu Hui 你不会
Album : SHERO 2010

S.H.E - Ni Bu Hui 你不会 Lyric :

dàn tīnɡjiàn bícǐ línɡhún duō kěwànɡ yónɡyuǎn
但听见彼此灵魂 多渴望永远
tiēxīn hòu zuǐjiǎo de tián mócā hòu yánjiǎo de xián
贴心后嘴角的甜 摩擦后眼角的咸
yìqǐ dǒnɡ ài hé zhēn ài de chābié
一起懂爱和真爱 的差别
nǐ sònɡ de bēizi lǐmiàn hái zhuānɡ zhe wēnrè ɡǎnjué
你送的杯子里面 还装着温热感觉
nǐ ɡěi de měiɡè jìniàn dōu páizài chuānɡyán
你给的每个纪念 都排在窗沿
xiànɡjī shì qiānshǒu liǎnɡ niánwéijīn shì dōnɡjīnɡ wǔ tiān
相机是牵手两年 围巾是东京五天
jièxiàn shì yòu kū yòu xiào de dàoqiàn
界线是又哭又笑 的道歉

wǒ bù xiānɡxìn nǐ xīnzhōnɡ xiànzài tā zuì měi
我不相信 你心中现在她最美
nǐ búhuì nǐ búhuì nǐ búhuì
你不会 你不会 你不会
bǎ wǒmén de ài cǎi suì
把我们 的爱踩碎
wǒ bù xiānɡxìn nǐ kǒuzhōnɡ huì jiǎnɡchū hòuhuǐ
我不相信 你口中会讲出后悔
nǐ búhuì nǐ búhuì nǐ búhuì
你不会 你不会 你不会
bù xīnténɡ wǒ jùjué bèi kànjiàn de lèi
不心疼 我拒绝被看见的泪

dānɡchū bèi jīliè fǎnduì nǐ ān jìnɡ què méi tuǒxié
当初被激烈反对 你安静却没妥协
duì wǒ ɡènɡhǎo lái wájiě biérén de piānjiàn
对我更好来瓦解 别人的偏见
wǒ shēnɡqì shí zǒnɡ jǐtiān wǒ juèjiànɡ kǒubùzéyán
我生气时总几天 我倔强口不择言
shì nǐ qǐnɡ bǎ wǒ dānɡ qínɡxù chéndiàn
是你 请把我当情绪沉淀

wǒ bù xiānɡxìn nǐ xīnzhōnɡ xiànzài tā zuì měi
我不相信 你心中现在她最美
nǐ búhuì nǐ búhuì nǐ búhuì
你不会 你不会 你不会
bǎ wǒmén de ài cǎi suì
把我们 的爱踩碎
wǒ bù xiānɡxìn nǐ kǒuzhōnɡ huì jiǎnɡchū hòuhuǐ
我不相信 你口中会讲出后悔
nǐ búhuì nǐ búhuì nǐ búhuì
你不会 你不会 你不会
bù xīnténɡ wǒ jùjué bèi kànjiàn de lèi
不心疼 我拒绝被看见的泪

wǒ bù xiānɡxìn nǐ chónɡlái de xìnɡfú zài tuōɡuǐ
我不相信 重来的幸福在脱轨
nǐ búhuì nǐ búhuì nǐ búhuì
你不会 你不会 你不会
liú cánkù rànɡ wǒ miànduì
留残酷 让我面对
wǒ bù xiānɡxìn yìqǐ de huíyì dōu sǔnhuǐ
我不相信 一起的回忆都损毁
nǐ búhuì nǐ búhuì nǐ búhuì
你不会 你不会 你不会
she de wo liu yi ting xiang ci chao de lèi
舍得我 留一滴想乞讨的泪

I like the hairstyle of that girl after she cut and dyed her hair. Woot. Love it. x3

Feel like blogging out of the sudden. Was suppose to study at home but instead I went on reading at others people's blog and got envious by their lives. Yesterday post has been a sad one, So now I'm back with random feelings and updates on my recent life.

Went to the library almost everyday to revise for my A2. Next paper, Maths Applied at 26th this month. Spent almost 3 to 5 hours studying each day I think. But after studying I need to use 2 hours to travel back Puchong. This really makes me felt more exhausted. Especially when I'm on the way back and then the rain came. Hates the weather. Been thinking if I gave up studying for my A-level, will SIM still wants me in? Stupid thoughts.

Throat not getting better. Don't even dare to talk loudly in fear that I might lost my voice soon. This is bad. I hate having sore throat when exams are just around the corner. Can't even fuss and scream loudly when I'm frustrated. And I can't have my favourite M&M too. Argh~

This blogskin is starting to bored me. I wanted a new one but I hate to re-do everything again. Maybe I could use a more simple, not that fancy blogskin. Might reduce the time I use to fix everything back to normal. But I won't have that time to change it now. A2 is coming. Well, actually I don't even felt that exam mood now. Guess WY was correct. We got numb by all those tests and exam that now even A2 makes no difference. Yay. Doing revision is just like doing homework. We do it just for the sake of doing. *sign* I miss my high school days. Even spm doesn't sound as scary as A2. Wth?

Bii. I'm begining to miss you now. How am I going to survive without you. Be stronger. That what you want me to be. But can I really? Can we survive that distance? Idk. I just want to be with you longer.

Ps: 41days.

Not feeling good now. Can't control my tears. Can't control my emotion. I'm been crying for 2 nights but he didn't know anything about it. I don't know how to tell him what I'm feeling now so I decide to blog here. Not sure when he will take a look here and realised this.

Hmm. My heart feels so pain. And I can't breathe. Crying makes me feel better but is causing more pain to my throat. Almost lose my voice now all because of mee siam, Mcd fries, snickers, ice chocolate, and no medicine.

*sign* I know we can't be together for long now since I'm leaving next month and I know there is nothing we can do to change this situation here. You're in Msia and I'll be in Sg. I will say bye. But I don't really mean that at all, will you feel the same? I hope yes. This heartbreaking news kept on circling around my brain stimulating more tears up to my eyes and blurring my vision now. Think I'll stop here. Can't bear to type more. This seriously hurts me more than anything.

Felt some pain inside my head. Great. Headache gonna attack me soon.

Ps: Do you know every message that i sms to you

contains all my tears in it?

不要把自己的女朋友丢下，因为她会怕你就此离开

在这个世界上有太多受伤的女孩，也有太多太多受伤的感情，只因为他有太多，所以女孩子害怕了，也退缩了，不是她们胆小，也不是她们不够相信，只是她们怕听到心碎的声音。

爱上你之后，每个女孩都是口是心非的，也是虚伪的，你们又怎能知道，又怎能理解，怎能明白，她们在想什么，或许，她们有时候也会不理解你，会做出一些…可你知道么？她们的初衷都是好的，都是善良的


她们会无理取闹，她们会唠唠叨叨，她们会流泪，她们会跟你争吵，她们会拿分手说事，她们只有一个目的，那就是想看看你是否还在乎她，是否还关心她，是否还心疼她，是否还会哄她，是否还会逗她，是否还会惯着她，而你们又怎能知道，她们之所以会来试探你，是因为你们没有给她们自信，没有给她们信心，她让她们开始恐慌，开始害怕，开始手足无措，开始赌最后一次

你们又怎能明白，她们是说一次，也怕一次，

她们怕你真的走开，怕你真的放弃


她们心会狭小，狭小到在容不下别人，里面全是你的影子，她们会为了一句叮咛而反反复复，她们也会因为你没有告诉她一句（我已安全到家）而将整个心揪在一块儿，她们也会因为你没有告诉她们一句晚安，而整个晚上睡不好觉，不是夸张，真的不是夸张，而是因为当她们爱上你后，心就不在属于自己，有的只是一副躯壳

你们是否知道，每个女孩到空间最最关注的是什么？不是想看别人的文章，只是想看看是否有你停留过的足迹，她们会去转载那些伤感的爱情故事，不为别的，只为填充那颗空虚的心


男孩累了有烟来缓解，男孩愁了有酒来麻醉，可女孩呢？抽烟不正经，喝酒太…她们有的只有眼泪…

Ps: Don't leave me alone waiting...for nothing.

Short post here. My w995 is dying now. So daddy took it to Sg for it's operation. Hope it get well soon. Thus I'm using meichyi's ice cream now. Great phone but can't get used to it. I going to buy Aino or something like that after June when I go Sg.

Now I'm in citc. Gosh. There's so many people here. Diploma's holiday ends and there's also lots of new May intake students.@@ Will go library later. Need some help from Gin for applied. My applied sucks. Opps. Not anymore after some exercises. Lalalala.

15.05.10
Went Pyramid with meichyi again. Where else can we go? Hmm. Bought some clothes and ate pasta again. Love eating spaghetti. Watched Kidnapper. OMFG~ The movie is so gruesome and there's lot of scenes with blood and horror. Me and meichyi almost fainted when that kidnapper treat that 10 years old boy so badly and cruelly. But at least that ending is a good one. Also watched Ironman 2 at 10pm at IOI. Not bad. That's all I can say.

I'm going back to Sg this Friday. Wow. My friends keep asking me whether I still need to take my A2 or not? Haha. Of course I need. If not what am I suppose to show to SIM to let me enter? Btw, I still havent receive that letter from SIM. =(

Lalala. That's me. :D

Feeling much better now. But still doesn't have the mood to study. OMG~ My next paper is about 12 days away. I know there's still time but I hate last minute revision and I can't do anything about that. Is just my hobby I guess, to study late and regret at the same time.Went IOI just to buy tickets for my dad. Movie: IM2. My throat still hurts now. Wonder when can I fully recovered. Hmm. Being slacking around after pure paper. Anyone there mind to motivate me? I guess NO. Been too bored at home till I almost talk to myself. This is not the first time but definitely more in future. What am I going to do after my A2? Work? As what? I only think of H.O.L.I.D.A.Y!! But without work, no income, no money, can't put braces. *sign* What else can I work as? Promoter? Nah. Tutor? Nope. Sales? Never. So what to do? Hmm. Hmm. Hmm.

Btw, I need help. Hmm. Vote for my friend please. http://apps.facebook.com/mybohtea/index.php?sec=photo&id=704345757&page=1 Thanks.

Thanks for everything you did for me.

Thanks for being there for me.

Thanks for loving me.♥

Did I told you all that Doreen was back for next semester A-level? These are some pics taken on that day we went out for lunch with her at Jusco. Finally had the time to blog about it and upload the pics. Had so much fun that day. This is going to be a long, long post with lots of picha.

Forced Gin to take this pic. xDD He looked o cute right?

Doreen and Haizan.

Wei Yee and Su Linn.

Our couple, Gin and Su Linn. Hahaha.

I love this. Sulinn and Belinda.

Sulinn was thinking what colour should she use to dye her hair.

Lunch at Nando's. Total Rm128.45. O.O

Gin forcing Doreen to pay. Hahaha.

Sulinn eating french fries with tomato sauce. O.O

Gin with our shy shy Weiyee.

Sulinn, Belinda, Haizan, Doreen with Gin. Shy WY doesn't want to fit into this pic.

The End.

Me. In bus going from Sg back to Msia.

Me with M&M. Did I say I've eaten too much chocolates that cause me sore throat now?
Messy table.

Awwwwwww~ My favourites. But now this is killing me softly. :(

Woke up today and felt much better. Went to the doctor yesterday night and had some medicine. Hmm. Even the doctor was sick and is using a mask to cover his mouth. Can't hear what he say properly but I guess he said my throat looked bad. Must drink plenty of water. Yayayaya, I know. Now not only I have sore throat, I'm coughing now too. OMG~ Don't even dare to open the fridge, I don't think I can resist the temptation of all the chocolates lying inside. Hmm. Need to do some Account now. Bye readers.

Ps: You looked so cute when you whisper I love you to me.

1 down. 9 more to go.

Pure was easy today. *cheers* But after doing half the paper I felt dizzy and headache. So now I'm sick with fever (38degree), sore thorat and also headache. Can't eat and drink smoothly. My thorat hurts badly till now. Thanks god I've finished those hard, hard question before that freaking headache attack me.

Ohya. Bought Slumdog millionaire on Sunday. Finished everything within 6 hours. Omg. What a great book. Highly recommended. Going to find the movie and watch.

I'm going to wear braces!! OMG~ I'm so nervous just by thinking of the plucking teeth process. Pain pain go away, come again another day. Wooowuuuu~ I'm so high when I'm sick. Lalalalala.

33 Days.

Just post to tell you, readers, that I'm totally not free nowadays for blogging. A2 is just 5 days away and I've been staying at the library all day long for revision and when I got home after that, I'm exhausted. But we still had some fun in between revision because this might be the last time we see each other before A2 really started and ends. After June 11th, we're all going to graduate and walk separate ways. Hope you all can still remember me. =)

By the way, I'm in Sg now. Went to the dentist this morning. To wash my bad teeth. *urgh* Ohya. Planning to wear braces so I asked for info. Need $4000 and have to pluck out 3 teeth. 2 below, 1 above. OMG~ I'm so afraid I can't endure that much pain and I'm afraid of blood. This is so freaking horrible. Thus, might work after my A level in JP to earn some $$.

Okay. Will update next time. Bye. Good luck to all A level candidates.

Kenny Roger with Belinda, Sulinn and wy at jusco on Wednesday. Updating pics. xD Been very busy thus let the pics do the sayings.

Force Sulinn to pose this for us. Wahaha.

IOI Wongkok on Friday. Went there alone to study. Saw C

New clothes bought at Pyramid with my sis on Saturday.

My new voodoo. Old one disappear when I'm in college. :(

Just cut my fringe just now. My mum force that girl to hair it shorter till like this.

Don't say I looked weird. I KNOW IT MYSELF. O.O