I know you don't like me to throw tantrum. Its makes you feel frustrated. But sometimes I just can't control. Sorry, I always make us unhappy and quarrel. But you will always forgive what I've done wrong and says it's not my fault. Thanks for forgiving me everytime. I really appreciates the way you treat me. I'll never find anyone who treats me better than you. Sorry, I'll try not to be a spoiled girl next time. I promise.

Yeah~ I'm back from college. Been acting like a good student lately but is so freaking tired. Ohya. Got back my result for this trials. I thought I'll be failing all but actually I've only failed my Accounting and my Econ and Maths both got an E. Hohoho. Not bad right?? Lalala~

Yesterday went to Setiawangsa Jusco to have lunch because we have 3 hours break. My first time there. Wow. Quite big inside with lotsss of shops. Had Kenny Roger there with WY and Su Linn and Belinda (our usual gang but Gin doesn't want to pt his business so no him) but WY say Nando's is better than it. LOL. I think both the same. Prices almost same too. I love their mash potato but WY says it sucks. LOL. Might go Nando's next Wednesday I think. Hmm. I'm going to bankrupt soon. Been spenting too much after I started going college. See, my mum is correst bout the money wasting thingy after going to college. Should lock myself at home and STUDY.

meichyi coming to Msia this weekend I think. Hmm. I don't feel like going Ipoh. Wanna study for my A2. Seriously I'm lacking of time already. *sob* May is coming~~~ And my Accounts, my Econ and Maths~~ Oh no. Big trouble. And I've been addicted to Hotel City in FB. LOL. Help, help, help.

Pt Applied today. Went home at 12pm. Had Pure test today and I copied almost all of it from people. Can't solve it myself without some 'help'. During our 1 hour break, me and wy went tbr for lunch and went cc after eating for just half an hour. xDD Miss tbr 'ban mee' alot. Yummy~ After reaching home at 2pm called him and we chatted for a hour. Woooo~ Can't believed he's quite famous in his school. *jealous jealous* Crazy admirer. O.o

Ps: 19 days.

Guess what peeps? I'm in citc now which means I'm in COLLEGE!! Haha. Finally~ But I'm not going tomorrow because I have tuition in the afternoon. Maybe I'll be going on Wednesday. Haha.

Yesterday was fun. Smile a lot and laugh a lot. Almost becoming crazy. Lalala. Saw Tze Kien and he couldn't recognise me. So I went up to him and said Hi. He said I've changed a lot. But to me, he still looked the same. That very same guy who kept on bully me when we're in the same class during form 3. xDD

Watched Ice kacang puppy love and is sooooo nice. Highly recommended. Fish Leong looked so young in it. Woohoo~ Dislike Gary. He looked too gay. Wahaha.

Hmm. That's all for now. Won't publish post first. Wait till I go home complete my day and fill up more info bout today then only I'll publish. @@

Reached home~Tired.

Today is the don't know what pool opening ceremony. Class cancelled from 11.30 to 2. Some pics of it.

The so-called pool or lake whatever them call it. ==

After that ceremony, went Rampai court there for lunch with Belinda, WY, Gin, and Su Linn. Had spagetti again for the third time. OMG~ Got so addicted in spagetti. But that don't know what it's name shop doesn't serve good spagetti. Yucks. Btw, heard the gossip from WY. Omg, omg, omg~ O.o

Gin and Belinda. See how close they are. Ahaha.
Playing 'Lami'.

Why no me? Cause I'm the camera-man. =P

Gin with the menu.

PS: I love you. I love your smile. I love your eyes. I love your smell.

Lastly, I love your love.

I love the way you hug me in your arms. It makes me breathless. ♥

Woke up early at 10.30am today. Suppose to have tuition at 8am but I couldn't wake up. So I postpone it to Tuesday afternoon. After having breakfast, sit down and do my maths pass years. Finished 3 sets just now. used about 4 hours? Feel satisfied thus rewarding myself chocolates and allow myself to grow fatter despite I need to go out tomorrow. Who cares? Doing revision is hard, I need chocolates!!

Watched Being Human with Evonne yesterday at IOI. Not bad, meaningful story. I love the way the man loved his wife. Felt so touched. Hmm. But I disliked IOI old cinema!! Why can't we have the new one. Gosh. The old one stink badly of what I don't know. Just smelly. OMG~ But is cheap la the tickets. Rm6 only. Can't expect too much. LOL. I don't like the seats also. Not comfortable. Aiks. Felt a bit shaky and blahblablah. *dislike dislike*

Mum went Sg last night. Left me alone at home. Can't finish my har mee just now and have no one to finish it up for me. It ended up in the rubbish bin. Not even half was eaten. Aww~ I missed my mum. That's why I did so much Maths cause normally my mum will bring me out and only reached home at night, feeling exhausted from all the walking around. My mum always says Saturday and Sunday are the busiest day of the week. How come? Idk. Even my uncle was alarmed seeing me doing revision on the dining table. Wahaha. I've changed ok? Less than 20 days to A2. O.O *rush rush rush*

Ohya. Kept having weird dreams nowadays. The latest one is about xiao yuan fetching me and WY I think to have breakfast in Sg. Another one is about him. Can't remember the details now but he appeared in my dreams 3 days in a row. All sweet, sweet dreams. meichyi was in it too. About what I've forgotten. I think we had a quarrel in the dream. Adam was in it too. Haha. I remember what Adam did in my dream. I dream about A2 and I remember shouting to Adam that I need him to fetch me back after exams. He gave me his usual answer and that face but he did fetched me. xD Another strange thing about the dreams is that I felt I can control the dream. Example like I don't like to eat sushi, and in my dream if I'm eating sushi, I can run away and don't eat. I mean normally we can't choose to escape the things we dislike in our dreams right? But I can. Hmm, or actually majority can? @@ In 1 day I can have 3 to 4 dreams. All different one with different people in it. Maybe is because I slept too much? Ahaha. I wonder~

You make me felt as if I'm the only thing you really cared in this world. Awww~ *melt*

Planned to go coll tomorrow but heard Applied was cancelled so I changed my plan. Movie with Evonne at IOI. Teehee. It been 14 days since I've started ponteng. Can you believe that time actually flew at such amazing speed? WOW.

WY told me that there's some gossips she heard and wanted to tell me. But I'll have to go to coll and listen. *sign* This is how she forces me to go coll. That's why I planned to go tomorrow. Too bad the class was cancelled. Have to wait till Monday then. Even I didn't went coll but I did some revision on my own ok? I'm not being a too lazy A2 student at home. I did something to reduce my guilt for not going coll. Wahaha. Bad excuse I know, but that's my reason. x)

Mum going Sg tomorrow night. I'm not following because I'm going out to Pyramid with my NS friends and also my hubby on Sunday. I wanna follow too even though 2 months later I'll be there struck permanently but I think Sg is better than Msia. Too bad I miss the chance going back this time. But I won't regret choosing to stay here. *smile*

Can't believe I've lost the passion in blogging. Felt so empty when I blog, only then I realised I've done nothing to make me remember today. One day wasted. =(

My hair's getting longer. Teehee. ._.

Gosh. 10 days. Can't believe time passes so slow. Felt as if we been together for a long time. Bii, I promise I won't throw tantrum like I did to you previously. I'm changing for the better for you. Hope this time we can last longer.♥

Have tuition tomorrow at 9.30 in the morning. Hope I can wake up in time. Been doing my Maths pass year today. Need to work harder now. I'm aiming for a new camera. Going to persuade my dad to buy me 1 if I score something like 2A 1B or 1A 2B for my A lvl. @@

Neglected college totally. Not in the mood to travel there. Cause major headache just by thinking about the route going there and back. Opps. Think I'm going to hate college soon. Haha. WY hates me now. I lose 1 b.friend just by staying at home too much. ='(

Back.

Didn't camwhore around Ipoh. Not in that mood. But I've bought 2 dresses from Ipoh, one for me and one for meichyi. Hope she'll like it. Gambling a little with my cousins and I won rm15. Woohoo. My phone credit running low now. And I just won half a rm30 reload card. Aim to win rm30 but at least I've got half now. Hmm. Didn't slept well there because I can't sleep without my 'baobao'. I miss the smell. Awww. =(

Went to have some fortune telling there. I can't have a bf which is older than me 6 years old. Can't even talks to them. It bad for me. Can you believe he actually told me this? wth.

Going to pyramid with my NS friends this Sunday. Wanted to buy more clothes. And watch movie. =)

Mum encountering major prob now. Noone could save her but herself. Hope she'll get well soon and be my super mum again. It hurts me when I saw her cry.

Hmm. Another 27 days to A2. Study mode on. Did some revision on pure maths and decide not to go college tomorrow again. My mum says I just went to chit-chat only, so why bother to waste the time and money to travel there. True right? Ya. My mum understands me~!!

Not feeling well now. A bit dizzy and headache. Must be the serious lack of sleep yesterday. Think too much and tada! can't sleep. I'm still feeling a little bit moody. Just can't feel any better, i don't know why. Felt as if tears is going to pour down any moment now and my body is going to collapse soon. Gotta find him now. I need more energy. =(

Going to Ipoh tomorrow with my cousins, auntie, mum and lots of other 'aunties'. Looking forward to play, play and play. But I don't think there's anything fun there. Don't feel like going at first but then I'll be struck at home alone for 2 days and the thought of it scared me off. So after all the packing bag stuff I'm free to blog now.

Recently got addicted to my friend's blog. Hers life so interesting. Not like mine. pfft. But I'm going to change it into a interesting one. Hoohoo. Believe it or not. Blek.

I'm beginning to rot like dead people if I continue to stay at home without going out. 5 days past and I never step out of my house, not even to throw rubbish. Can you imagine that? Wow. This is freaking incredible. Think the next thing going to rot is my new hello kitty shoes. Oohh. Thanks god I'm going to Ipoh. I'm 20 and I getting older each day. Better use up everyday of my life. Even studying also consider making full use of the day. @@

I've done a right decision in finding him. He always make me felt happy after that. Simple simple things he said can really lift up my mood and let me breathe again. Amazing right? Love my silly silly boy.♥

I'm posting this now because I can't sleep. Been thinking a lot lately which makes my brain jam now. This is just nonsense. Ignore this post readers.

I've a lot of things I wanted to tell you, but inside me I know I shouldn't. I'm still afraid I might make you feel stress and pressure. There is still 2 months left. It is enough for me? No, no. Even forever is not enough. But there is nothing I can do. I can't ask for more time and I feel selfish to call you to leave with me. Ger~ I hate this bloody feeling.

Saw my friend blog and he post some thing bout his ex. Suddenly I realised when I lost you, I wanted you so badly that I, myself felt suprise too. But now when you're with me. I started to think some thing else. Some thing I won't bother to think about last time. What am I doing? What am I thinking? What I want and what I need is you. But what can I have? You? Yea, now but not in future. Am i being greedy for wanting more time with you? @@

I've got another friend who felt insecure with his gf. He is afraid of losing her just like I'm afraid of losing him. He told me his gf is still so young (17 this year) and when she graduate from her high school, she can find others better than him. (Ain't we all afraid of the unexpected future?) But I told him to put in more trust in her. A relationship should be a happy one, not a sad one full of suspicion. How come everyone can say things to others but not to our own self? I guess this is what people says easy to say but hard to do. Yeah. Believe her, believe him but can we really? I don't know. Trust him, believe him, but I'm scare of getting nothing in return. This hurts me more than anything. I just hope by the time he sees this, we'll be fine. Hmm. (We're fine now. I'm the one who thinks too much.) I know I must cherish you before I go to Sg, But somehow we both wonder is this the right thing to do? Maybe we should just continue with our own life. Noooo~ I don't want this I'm sure!! *sign*

I'm not going to coll tomorrow because my mum says she is lazy to fetch me to the lrt. == Fine. I'm lazy to go coll anyway. Great.

If you love me, show me.

Felt so tired even without doing anything at all. I don't even have that A2 is coming mood. Maybe is because I didn't go coll and felt nothing about exam. I'm so tired at this part of my life. But at least I have him beside me, which brighten up my life a bit. Time seem to pass so slow now. Totally felt no mood to study at all. I think I won't be going to coll until May.

meichyi is having lot of stress nowadays. Pity her for studying in such stressful environment, not like me. English in Sg is really important but mine like so sucky, I wonder I can understand what my lecturer says in future. *sign*

Been thinking a lot about my future, our future. But nothing seem realistic. Everything is just my thoughts and I know they won't come true. For once I hope I can at least have you with me but nothing I can do to make that happen. Perhaps pray does help a bit. *cross fingers again*.

I'm back at Msia now. Yesterday took bus at 2.30pm in Sg, about 9pm only reached home. Too lazy and tired to go college today so I give myself a rest. Hmm. Woke up at 1pm today and felt so hungry. Cooked tom yam mee for my breakfast/lunch. Bill reached home at 1.40pm and we chatted for 1 hour. Now I'm felt so bored, he's now taking a nap now. Fb's games doesn't feel as interesting as I just played. Kind of bored and I'll only play when I'm bored. Like now. ==

Hates my dad. He's so stubborn. Gerrr~

Might go Ipoh on Friday night this week with my mum and aunts (lots of aunties). Hope I won't feel bored with them. Btw, Msia is so hot. I wanna go shopping. Hates Msia's transport. Slow, slow, very slow.

Okay, finished blogging. Sianxx.

Hmm. Looks like long hair suit me more.

Went to Supreme Court to translate my SPM result yesterday with meichyi after her classes ended. Almost got lost finding our way there. But in the end, when we reached, we realised Supreme Court is really a court. O.o We were like OMG~ Translate a cert need to go to a real court? And the Court is like such a serious place that we have to pass all those security check and scanner before letting us enter the place itself. Wow. We both had a shock. A big one for me. O.o

My mum reached Sg today at 5.30am and my dad is going to reached Sg at 10pm today. Going to fetch him after our dinner.

I don't know whether I've done the right thing and I hope I won't regret giving out so much chances again and again. I've been dreaming and dreaming of this day but when it happens now, I don't know what to do. Hope this is going to be a happy ending. *cross my fingers* I'm so bored of all the sad sad ending already. T.T

My new converse bag. Love it at first sight. xDD

Hmm. Bought it with meichyi at Causeway Point. But her's is much more expensive than mine. Have nothing to blog. I'm so bored in Sg already. Dad went to China at 3am this morning and I woke up at 6am to accompany meichyi go down to the lobby to see her take cab to school. After that went back and sleep again. Will do the same tomorrow and Friday. No, I wasn't complaining oh meichyi. Haha.

I'm afraid I will run away from you.

But I'll promise I will be there when you need me.

You just don't know how happy I felt 'inside' when I saw your message. I've been smiling the whole day~ And maybe for the whole week I guess. *happy happy* Aww~ You're making me melt. ^^

Random pics about me. Short hair better or long hair? Hmm~ Too bored today while waiting meichyi to finish school at 2pm. Before that took bus at 1pm to westwood to find her. While waiting I ate my popchicken. Wee~~ Delicious. After that walk around JP and bought lots of cosmetics since lots of it under promotion. Haha. I've bought a perfume in The Body Shop. Nice~ Grandma cooked dinner today so we ate at home. The usual vege. Hmm. At least it consider edible for me. Everyone have school FB is so lonely in the morning. Btw, did i blog bout my trials result? I fail Account and Econ once again. But I'm not sure bout Maths. How come trials so hard to score? I wonder why. But till now I still haven't hot the mood to revise. There's still a month more to go beofre my A2. Will start tomorrow I think. Haha. Ohya. My shoulder hurts from carrying a heavy bag today. Have to sleep properly tonight. ._.

From FB, after 20 years old, I must start to change. xD

1.转身，要比眼泪快。
这是必须。
过了20岁，你必须学会承担难过，你必须知道难过它会过。
要经常对自己说，我也可以很勇敢。不要，千万不要，轻易在别人面前掉眼泪。
别人看多了你的眼泪，就会觉得你的眼泪如此廉价。

2.你以前或许干过许多荒唐的事。
可是请你不要觉得那有多见不得人。请你不要觉得那是负担。
过了20岁，这是你生命中一个新的开始。

3.谁对你好，你就对谁好。
人际交往永远是礼尚往来的。双向法则。没有人有义务对你好。
过了20岁，擦亮眼睛，谁对你好，记得对他好。


4.明确自己的目标，为此奋斗。
什么女子无才便是德，要嫁得好，首先要有才。
而此处问题的关键，不是嫁得好。是你自己过得好。
过了20岁，你要出国？找工作？还是继续学习？
过了20岁，你离踏入社会已不远，你是否已做好准备？

5.答应自己的事情就要做到，该对自己狠的时候就要狠，切忌优柔寡断、藕断丝连。
对自己心软，成不了大事。
过了20岁，要学会面对现实，不能再整日沉浸于白日梦中。

6.如果你正在恋爱，请不要毫无保留地付出。
你全盘托出了，拿什么留给你以后的老公？
女孩子，要学会对自己好一点，别把所有的都投资在所谓的“潜力股”身上。
无论什么时候，看清楚你自己手中留着什么底牌。

7.做人学会圆滑。
过了20岁，别人不会再把你当小孩子，你的错误已不会再有人包容。
对不喜欢的人和事面带笑容，是我们必须学会的恶心。

8.感谢所有伤害过你的人。
然后在20岁生日的那天，对他们挥挥手，说声，我不再恨你们了。
仇恨留在20岁以前的青春，你长大了，你要正视伤害。

9.别玩什么非主流。你又不是肥猪刘。
还不如学着化化妆，不是烟熏妆，是大方得体的淡妆。
一个大企业的面试官曾对我说过，一个化淡妆的女生，企业会优先考虑。
为什么？因为你连自己的容貌都不着急，你会着急什么？
世界上没有丑女人，只有懒女人。

10.减肥，说说就好。
到你真的减到跟竹竿似的时候，你会发现低血压低血糖头晕目眩一系列疾病同时伴随你。
说不好还有胃癌。
过了20岁，你要知道，你以后的路还有很长，健康的身体是你走下去的保证。

11.对挑拨离间的人，不要揭发他。
等他演完一出出好戏，拼命演，拼命圆。
然后告诉他，其实你什么都知道。
接着，笑笑，离开。


12. 是的，你已经达到法定婚龄了，可是你并不用着急着嫁人。
或许你正在热恋，你们山盟海誓说要一辈子。
可是你才刚过20岁，你不知道一辈子到底有多长。日子是过出来的，不是想出来的。
结婚，不是两个人的事情，是两个家庭的事情。老一辈讲的门当户对，并不是毫无道理的封建思想。结婚，你应该抱着一辈子只有一次的信念，所以挑选的时候丝毫不得马虎。恋爱，就把它当成恋爱。结婚，慢慢来。

13.轰轰烈烈的爱情，留给一字头的年龄。
你已经20岁了。别再做那些会被别人当做笑话的傻事。
什么夜不归宿，当街吵架，以死相逼，一哭二闹三上吊。
那些疯狂的事情，那些年少轻狂，我们经历过就够了。
过了20岁了，学会淡定从容。

14.男朋友，宁缺毋滥。不要因为寂寞而恋爱，不要因为跟风而恋爱。
过了20岁了，学会对自己的人生负责。

15.自己喜欢的东西，不要奢望别人买。
20岁，不管你以前是否玩过暧昧，你已经过了暧昧的年龄。
女人要独立，经济独立是基础。

16.如果一个男人对你说他配不上你，相信他。
一个自己说配不上你的男人，一辈子也不会配得上你！
珍惜与能力无关，与钱无关！

最后.随时给自己准备一个微笑 告诉自己 我可以！

OMG~ I've received his msg just now but I can't reply. Awwww. =(

Finally I have the time to blog. Really tiring and busying these few days. Had lots to be updated. Will be as detail as possible.

1th April
Went KLCC with WeiYee, Belinda and Su Linn 'after' coll. Watched Clash of the Titans(2D). Really nice movie. While watching I kept on telling WY I want to watch 3D lah. But the time for 3D is too late for us. Too bad then. After watching that, WY suggest we go for the Petrosains thingy. At first I don't want to go in cause last year I've went there with mao already. Don't feel like going again. But that WY kept on persuade me, in the end I went in again. Everything the same (what else can I expect from them ==) but I still have fun. To take a look at the photo, view my FB. Too bad Su Linn doesn't want to go in with us. She missed out the fun we had. Since they close at 5.30 we had to rush and finish the whole thing before 5.30. After that I went home myself. First by LRT to Pasar Seni then Bus to Puchong Perdana. Heavy traffic and I took 2 hours to reach home at 8. WTH~Give me 2 hours I can even reach Ipoh!! But during the ride home lots of thoughts entered my mind and I think of him. Remembered I promised him that I'll bring him to Petrosains next time but now, I don't think I'll have the chance. Sometimes I really missed him so much that it hurts my heart badly. When will I be the original me again? Slept at 11 because I need to pack my back to SG the next day.

2th April
SOON LOONG'S BIRTHDAY!!
Wake up at 5.30am reach coll at 7.50am. But pt at 10 and I went back Puchong. By LRT then bus again. Whole process from coll to Puchong IOI took me 1 hour 45 minutes. == After that shop around IOI while waiting for mao to fetch me to pyramid. Promised them so long ago that I'll go out with them finally I didn't ffk. Ohya. The service of Guardian at IOI sucks. I wanted to buy M&M there because I saw it's under promotion 2 for rm 4++ (i forgot liao ><). Then I took 2 and went to the cashier. There is this lady arguing with the cashier because of what I also not sure. So I waited and waited until mao called me say she now coming to fetch me. Then the queue got longer and the cashier kept on calling other staffs for help but everyone seem to ignore her. Then this lady realised she caused the long queue so she called me to pay at the other counter on the other side. So I went for the other one which is closed and I told her the cashier in front was struck. But then, the cashier told me 2 M&M is rm 5++ (forgot the price she said) so I was like HUH? I told her: there write rm 4++ only le. promotion time from 1th April to 30th April mah. So she went to the shelves and check together with my rm10 and the chocos. Then I continue to stand there wondering how in the hell I'm going to get back my rm10 if she suddenly said I didn't gave her any money? Then the cashier told me the computer haven't input the price and I've to pay that amount. At the same time, mao called me saying she had reached and she can't park there. So I snatched the money from the cashier and ran away without the chocos. So hungry. Ger~ So after reaching Pyramid, went Redbox and sing with
Evonne and Mao. Had a great time but felt so tired. When we were singing I think of him and our past and my eyes become wet. But I don't want them to know as I know this will spoilt all our mood. Why is he so strong while I'm so weak? This ain't getting any better. *breathe in breathe out* Okay, back to my life and those happy memories. After singing, mao suggest we find a place to sit and chat. So we went to Mr honeymoon (if I'm not mistaken) and ordered dessert. Laugh a lot and jokes around which really makes my mood changed. Seriously I'm not that type of emo girl, I don't talk that's because I have nothing to say, not emo. Don't misunderstand me. After all those stupid and crazy jokes, Mao fetched me back at 5.30. Broke down in her car when we talked about him. I don't know why I just can't control my tears after almost 6 months. What did I do wrong to get this? I seriously don't know. *sign* Packed my bag and at 9pm sat the bus u70 at Tesco to Pasar Seni again to take the bus to SG. Hates to sit Msia bus. Very shaky.

3th April
Reached Sg at 4am and my dad fetched us back home. Slept straight away and wake up at 7 or 8 I've forgotten. Then have breakfast with my family included my grandma and grandfather. After eating my mum wants to go to Bugis to pray and we headed there by lrt. My Kappa shoes really hurt my legs but now I've got my new hello kitty shoes. Wonders how it looks like. Haha. Shall not post the pic up here. Wait till you see the real thing. So sweet and it won't hurt me like that Kappa shoes and it's cheaper than the Kappa. Ohya. I watched Clash of the Titans again this time with 3D. Really great and it worth watching it twice. This 3D is even better than avatar and Alice together. Totally full 3D. 2D doesn't give you the full excitment but this 3D does the job. Wow. I almost felt the waves, the water and the fire. Nice, nice, nice.

4th April
After breakfast again with my family, my dad brought us to the airport because he wants to teach me mum the way so that when my dad came back from China this Sunday she can go fetch him back. My dad will go on Wednesday and I'll need to accompany meichyi to school in the morning and back home. So noble right? Right. My dad even brought us to some fishing shops and me and meichyi took lots of photo there. Too boring while waiting my dad to choose his stuffs. But I'm so lazy to upload now. Maybe later or tomorrow. My mum is leaving Sg today, I mean just now at 2.30pm. And she'll come back Sg again this friday and this time I'll go back with her on Sunday. So I'll be pt classes for a week. Haha. Okay, that's all for today. Now is 4.30. Count for me the time I need to post the blog. Phew~