perhaps in less then 6 months i'll be in singapore to start over a new life
i dont know when i'll be back
maybe 5 years, 10 years or never
i dont even know what to study when i reaches there
felt so lost but excited ^^
okay..i'm been optimistic
if you ask me what have i been doing for this whole year
maybe i'll answer studying ba, what else can i do?
but deep inside me i know how much time i spent on my studies
and how much time i wasted on others not important stuffs
2010 is coming and i know there isnt going to be more time for me to waste again
have to work hard work hard and work hard!!(did i say this before??@.@)
okay~try to summarise what i did this year
January
college reopen and i became a junior in a-level again, was assigned as a class rap, a useless and irresponsible one.
February
after Chinese new year on 18.02.09, my grandfather(mother's side) passed away, he got cancer near his intestine, i skipped 2 of my exam because of his funeral, i rather choose to see him for the last time then to go for that stupid test
March
my sis went singapore to study after the march holidays.
And on 28.03.09, my cousin passed away too (father's side), he is just 16 years old only, motor accident, broken spine and leg, really was a shocking news to me and my family.
April
another exam coming, took it but didnt score well(since when i scored well in my exam??)
May
evonne going to take her AS, felt her pressure too, and i studied hard for my coming exam this time.
took the exam before holiday started at june.
June
holiday started, meichyi came back for holiday.
celebrated wen loong's 16th birthday with him at klcc, 1 of my top 10th unforgetable day in my life *smile*
July
result out, pretty good, at least no fail.
meichyi's birthday, went back singapore and celebrated with her.
August
felt my trial for AS coming closer, did nothing but pray, pray and pray.
September
okay..felt the worst coming, didnt even memorized formula for maths and i sat for the paper, guess what??i got a new record, studied for 16 years and i failed all of my subjects!!i didnt exaggerate, i did failed ALL 4 subjects O.o
October
my dad's birthday, went back sg again. when i came back, everything changed, never felt truely happy since then, regreted for going back sg so many times and neglected him. i thought he'll be there for me forever but i'm wrong, seriously wrong. Tried to get back to my AS, i studied hard for it, trying to make myself busy to forget the pain and to forget him. we both struggle a lot during that period of time but it doesnt change things.
November
exam continued till 11th, but meichyi was back on the 4th, didnt have the mood to study for my last econ paper. holiday started, been shopping and watching movie ALL the time. And i started my driving lesson finally. after we break for 1 month, he came back to me and said he cant forget me. but after 1 week, he changes his mind again. i was totally shock and i dont know how to describe my feelings.
December
Till now, i'am still struggling, but he was firm. he knew what he wanted and he make sure i dont repeat everything again. he stayed a perfect distance from me, far but close enough to let me feels his heart. i know what he's thinking but he doesnt wants to give me a chance. meichyi left for singapore on 28th, celebrated my b.day with my family on the 27th at the ship, damansara. overall, i've watched 9 movies in this 1 and a half month.
Shall list it down~
1.2012
2.christmas's carol
3.princess and the frog
4.new moon
5.avatar
6.treasure hunter
7.the bodyguard and the assassins
8.alvin2
9.sherlocks holmes.
a sentence for myself in 2010: never ever look back ♥.
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