Don't read this because it's just random ranting.

Unless you're bored because this is gonna be a real boring post about how I felt after working for a month.

Oh no, accidentally neglected my blog for 2 weeks, this is bad. Can't even find time to on my laptop when I'm home every day after I knocked off. Initially plan to take up Korean lesson around August or September but I seriously doubt I'll have time for that.

Things are really getting hectic for me at the moment. But colleagues are really nice, friendly and helpful. I totally like everyone. (Well frankly speaking I don't dislike or hate anyone, read why here) Can't even describe how grateful I felt whenever somebody teaches me something new or explains things to me in details. Even though I think some questions I asked was really dumb/stupid/ridiculous, but they still explained to me till I totally get it. They really save my life. Like literally. Can not imagine working without their help. This is the first time I've asked so many questions in a day. I've tried to figure out by myself but I can't risk making a big, big mistake so it's better to ask somebody. Got to unleash the shameless and thick-skinned self.

The only problem with work is that, I tend to pressurize myself too much till I seem to be in a constant panic mood. Am I too slow? Can I finish in time? Did I miss out something important? Am I the only one who's constantly asking for help? Why is this done this way? Must I do it this way too? When should I do this the other way? How do I get this figure? What should I do next? Why is this so complicated? HHHHHHEEEELLLLLPPPPPPPPPP!

...... Sometimes I just felt so lost. *sigh.

I don't know if any of my colleague will see this but if you happen to, I hope you were once like me too. Or maybe it's just me? I hope not. Then I'll feel slightly better thinking I'm not the only one feeling this way and I'll be able to work independently like you all one day. I seriously 佩服 and 崇拜 any one who can solve my problems or answer my questions. I really 想破头皮 but they somehow makes the answer to my question look so obvious and easy. WHOAAAAA! 好强. Well, you can see I'm really 激动 now because a lot of Chinese flew out randomly liao. HAHAHAHA.

Been getting lots of you-will-get-used-to-it-soon / it's-hard-at-first-so-don't-worried-too-much-now from my colleagues. Actually I think I'm improving (or so I thought) but there's seriously too much for me to learn. I MISS BEING A STUDENT! But can not! Or maybe can if I take part time courses. LOL.

But all in all, I still like my work because I'm sure I'll be thankful in future for persevering through all the hardship I'm suffering now. 先苦后甜嘛 right? YES, RIGHT.

Okay, I'm going to sleep now. Tomorrow will be a brand new day so be happy and stay happy. Byeeee.

 

PS: To everyone who helped me in whatever ways,

thank you, thank you, thank you.