Today is a happy, happy day!

 I'm eating Mcd while blogging now. Bite sized fries plus nuggets. That's how I eat, and I can only eat it at home because after my first tightening session last Saturday, my front teeth got so tight that it's even harder to eat than before. But nvm, I understand 爱美是要付出代价的.

Well, anyway, last weekend was really crazy and insanely fun! Went to Wilber Pan's concert on Saturday night with carmel, qilu and zhiping (the usual 听华语歌 clique), free tickets thanks to carmel's cousin, and that was so so so FUN and heno was so so so 帅!! He debuted 10 years ago and I started listening to his songs when I'm 14, does that makes me his 'loyal' fan? LOL. No la, I just listen to some of his 情歌, but he's more to the rapper type of singer so I don't really know a lot of his songs. Plus he sang a lot upbeat songs during his concert that I can't possibly rap along so I really just stared at him. There's one thing I wanna clarify is that he can sing live lo!! Who say he can't!! 能唱能跳, whoaaaaaaa! Going to his concert makes me feel like I'm back to my student days. So young, wild and free? HAHAHAHA. Not say I don't like my life now, is just that somehow I'm no longer that happy every day.

But but but, today is a happy day!! Not gonna say why but today I'm seriously happy. Maybe the happiest day I had in the 1 month plus of my working life. No joke. Hope everyday will be like today. Yesterday sucks ttm. 

Okay, back to the weekend update, wanted to take picture of wilber during the concert since he was just 6 rows away from me IF he walk to the extented-T-shaped-stage (don't know what's that called but anyway, you get what I mean? If you don't then too bad.), but my phone actually died on me, I can't believe it. So disappointed with my 2 years 8 months iphone that I decided to abandon it and buy a new one. And so I bought a new one the next day! Note 2 with my sis. Our phone really no medicine can cure already. Okay okay, back to wilber, when he walked towards us, everyone just crowd around just to be as near to him as possible. It's so crazy!! But I can't use my phone to take picture! It just turned all black and I can't do anything with it! Imagine holding up your phone but the camera's not working and people at the back just happened to look at your blacked-screen-phone and wonder what are you going to do with it holding up so high. HAHAHAHAHA.  Super regret not bringing my camera with me. Totally forgot about it.

Omg, super tired now, there's a lot more to update about but I'm really sleepy now. Woke up late 2 days in a row, not a good sign, gonna sleep early today. So pardon my broken English and byeeeee. 

PS: Being positive helps. 

Han Byul - I'll be there for you

*melts.

*sigh.

Very, very sad song.

I felt really depressed and suffocated this morning. Luckily I texted xw and after talking to her over the phone, I felt so much better. Went Raffles mrt toilet before heading to office because I seriously think I gonna break down anytime soon. Tried to clear my mind and tidied up all the messy feelings and thoughts so I'll be able to focus on my work today.

Leave office exactly at 6pm today because I don't really have a lot of urgent case to rush. Decided to go jogging since the last time I jogged was a month plus ago. Felt much much better after sweating and now I'm back to being the happy me again. Not gonna let other people words affect me.

Okay, tired ttm. Gonna crash. Byeee.

PS: I'm sorry but I tried my best.

Stay strong.

Yes, I'm learning.

Don't read this because it's just random ranting.

Unless you're bored because this is gonna be a real boring post about how I felt after working for a month.

Oh no, accidentally neglected my blog for 2 weeks, this is bad. Can't even find time to on my laptop when I'm home every day after I knocked off. Initially plan to take up Korean lesson around August or September but I seriously doubt I'll have time for that.

Things are really getting hectic for me at the moment. But colleagues are really nice, friendly and helpful. I totally like everyone. (Well frankly speaking I don't dislike or hate anyone, read why here) Can't even describe how grateful I felt whenever somebody teaches me something new or explains things to me in details. Even though I think some questions I asked was really dumb/stupid/ridiculous, but they still explained to me till I totally get it. They really save my life. Like literally. Can not imagine working without their help. This is the first time I've asked so many questions in a day. I've tried to figure out by myself but I can't risk making a big, big mistake so it's better to ask somebody. Got to unleash the shameless and thick-skinned self.

The only problem with work is that, I tend to pressurize myself too much till I seem to be in a constant panic mood. Am I too slow? Can I finish in time? Did I miss out something important? Am I the only one who's constantly asking for help? Why is this done this way? Must I do it this way too? When should I do this the other way? How do I get this figure? What should I do next? Why is this so complicated? HHHHHHEEEELLLLLPPPPPPPPPP!

...... Sometimes I just felt so lost. *sigh.

I don't know if any of my colleague will see this but if you happen to, I hope you were once like me too. Or maybe it's just me? I hope not. Then I'll feel slightly better thinking I'm not the only one feeling this way and I'll be able to work independently like you all one day. I seriously 佩服 and 崇拜 any one who can solve my problems or answer my questions. I really 想破头皮 but they somehow makes the answer to my question look so obvious and easy. WHOAAAAA! 好强. Well, you can see I'm really 激动 now because a lot of Chinese flew out randomly liao. HAHAHAHA.

Been getting lots of you-will-get-used-to-it-soon / it's-hard-at-first-so-don't-worried-too-much-now from my colleagues. Actually I think I'm improving (or so I thought) but there's seriously too much for me to learn. I MISS BEING A STUDENT! But can not! Or maybe can if I take part time courses. LOL.

But all in all, I still like my work because I'm sure I'll be thankful in future for persevering through all the hardship I'm suffering now. 先苦后甜嘛 right? YES, RIGHT.

Okay, I'm going to sleep now. Tomorrow will be a brand new day so be happy and stay happy. Byeeee.

 

PS: To everyone who helped me in whatever ways,

thank you, thank you, thank you.

Falling in love.

The queens are back with a not-their-usual-powerful-vocals-gonna-blow-you-away song! This is more like holiday feel and kinda soft? Feel like dancing some hawaii dance. You know? Like do wave and 扭来扭去. But I don't get the 'touch me over here, touch me over there' part of the song. My first reaction is HUH? 什么东西? Oh blackjacks please don't hate me, I still like this song, and Park Bom super hawttt can!

On side note, did you see Minzy's pink hair?!?!?! OMG! I WANNA DYE THAT COLOR SO FREAKING BADDD! Maybe I should get myself a wig. *sigh. Still not getting used being an OL.

I should blog more, but I'm really lazy and sleepy, and tired, and ...

Okay, byeee. *poof.

On repeat.

Still fight but I don't know why.