Anyway, here goes my day till now at 3pm. Wake up at 10am today because I'm really starving so hard till I can't get back to sleep. And with no food at home, I went out with my sis to JP to buy some Carbonara sauce to cook some spaghetti for my brunch and dinner. (Btw, I'm clicking save after every sentence I've typed, not gonna let history repeat itself!) But after reaching JP got so hungry so I take away chicken rice. I don't think I can stand the hunger while cooking the spaghetti. So after eating I'm blogging from 1pm till now, fuck it, fuck blogger! Why don't they help me save it?! /_\
Fine! I'll continue to blog since I have lot of time now, with no revisions and work. But I'm bored and CASHLESS! With only 1 tutee now, I can't sustain my standard of living! Just got my tuition pay last Saturday and I've spent every little bit of it after shopping with my sis on the same day! Went town with her and bought 2 tops from Forever 21, 1 shorts from Cotton On, MASKS (if you know me well, you should know I have a thing for masks, I just can't stop buying and using it! Well, this sounds better than buying but not using. HAHAHA and guess what I'm really proud of myself for being able to get 33 masks at $19! *happy), an IPhone casing and a customize key chain for my common Long champ bag (to differentiate between mine and others, heh). Been looking for a job the past few days but no one called me back! I guess I started looking for a job at the wrong time, should have start earlier since is the mid term school holidays now and lots of high school kids are looking for jobs too. Oh well, since markets have already been flooded with these youngsters maybe I should look for one after their holidays end. But that would means cashless for another 1 month and lifeless too. Not really a good idea. Or should I look for some admin job? But without any experience, is not that easy. No body would want some brainless girl in their company I guess. HAHAHA. My friends recommend me to get another tutee but I'll have to continue teaching even after holidays end, which might be a little hard to handle. Have to struggle through studies and assignments for my final year and tuition on the other hand? Don't think this will work for me, I need lots of time to revise!! Sigh, why those retail shops don't want me? :/
Anyway, went shopping with xw yesterday around town and Bugis (sg is just a dot, so we literally have nowhere to go). Before heading out, took a pic and I seriously think I looked so feminine with my short hair and NO MAKE UP FACE (well, I don't put make up so naturally is a makeup-less face heh). The right one with red hair and lacy top (from forever 21), is the one I look yesterday and the left, brown hair with some blogshop checkered top is a pic I took some time ago, before finals and after prelims, going school look. I have the same hairstyle but the left pic look so manly right? Maybe is the way I smile? I don't know but I think I look good in both pic, HAHAHAHAHA. Not saying I'm pretty or good looking but I think I look good for being able to pull off both man and feminine image. But this is just my personal opinion! Teehee.
Well, so back to blogging about details, after tuition last week, I went to the polyclinic to check my eyes before heading to town. Wah seriously have to complain a bit about the particular doctor there who really pissed me off. I know they normally finish work at 12pm but if there's still people waiting for their turns they can not leave, and I just happened to be the last few waiting for my turn. So after asking me what's wrong, I told the doc that my left eye hurts after removing my lens from my eye and that I can't see clearly even with my specs now (I've just did my specs last month, so is impossible for my power to increase that fast right?NO?) Then the doc asked me if I still can see or not? I said a bit blur? He asked so still can see? I was like, of course still can la I'm not blind eh. But being a polite girl so I replied yes. He asked what is the power of both my eyes and I told him left eye -4.75, right -6.00. My optician told me that's high for me but this bloody doc say still okay what?Not really high. O.O Then I continue expressing my doubts on why will my eye turn red after removing my lens, and he looked at my eye and said in a dead tone, well, I can tell you is not red now. WTH? Of course is not red now, I haven't been wearing my lens for 2 days!! But I just swallowed my anger when he sent me to another room to test my eyes' degree. Didn't even answer my doubts and just impatiently showing me that attitude like I'm wasting his time when he should be on his way home, like I'm some small kid making a fuss out of little things. But in the end he told me there's nothing wrong with my eyes and my power indeed went up higher which means I have to redo my specs again. Oh, he did use some torch thingy and examined my eyes. So now I'm back to wearing lens but not for long hours. I used to wear for really long hours and whenever I leave home, but now I'll just wear my specs if I'm not going out for long. I think my eyes turn red because of the larger diameter of the colored lenses now? I'm not really sure but I used to wear 14mm and now this is 14.2mm. Is not really a big difference but I guess maybe the bigger the lens, the drier my eyes will be? Cause they will covered up more of the eyes, right? My eyes still turn red now but at least I felt better and not panicky after the doc told me there's nothing wrong.
Okay, finally after typing for so long, I'm at the ending part now. This is really a long post!! See, I'm really bored at home but is just too tiring to go out every single day! I admit I'm getting older HAHAHA. Oh well, lots of friends have been asking me when I'm going to go back Msia and I'm saying this now, I don't feel like going back this holiday. I wanted to find work first that's my first priority and I really think everyone in Malaysia is so so so busy with their own life now that even if I go back they won't have time for me. I'll just rot at home with no transportation of my own. I hate to depend on friends to fetch me around but since I don't have my own car and I don't trust myself to drive with my 2 years license so I prefers staying in Singapore where I can travel on my own and to places I like.
And oh, have to blog a bit about this friend I have in Malaysia. We used to be quite close during our high school time and this is my government school friend (fyi, I've been to both private and government school during my high school time for 4 years and 1 years respectively, so I graduated at the government school). And this guy (I don't know if he will see this but I'm not bad mouthing you, I'm just telling you how I feel) talked to me last night through the fb chat. He asked me why I kept chatting to another guy friend of the same high school clique and not him. I told him is that guy who talked to me first and I just replied and since this on-going chatting guy seem busy with his life, I didn't take the initiative to talk to him. I don't know why he must say things like he's my bf and sound jealous just because I'm kinda closer to the other guy than him. He even said things like I know you miss the other guy la cause we kept chatting. Hello?Can I just chatted with a guy?And btw, he had a gf. And after that he went on asking why didn't I tell him when I'm back in Msia previously around CNY this year. I explained saying I don't usually tell everyone I'm back because that would sounds awkward and attention seeking if they don't want to know and are not close to me. So normally I would only tell like my BFF and those that keep in touch with me constantly. And then .. he asked how's my life recently, so I told him I'm enjoying my holidays now. He replied he's sad. I was like okay, I think I know why but I still asked him why? He said because I didn't even go back when I'm having my holidays and he asked me why must I 'fly' so far? I said is Singapore far? Nobody ever tell me I were far from them. This sounds a bit weird but I think he still look at me like I'm the 17 y/o girl he used to know. I admit I've changed, I'm more matured now and is frustrating having to talk about those 'jealous' feeling you have. I'm no longer the childish girl who like to seek attention by being 'close' with guys and feel good about having guys who felt jealous when I'm closer to another guy. Yeah I used to be this kind of attention seeking girl but I'm no longer now, feel so stupid. Ggeerr. I don't flirt around with guys anymore unless you're special *wink. Anyway, I hope this guy will see this and I really still appreciate you as my friend and thanks for remembering me and talk to me even when you're busy with your life. But I want to say if you really felt jealous, you can talk to me anytime and I will reply! Fb chat work both way fyi, is not like you can't talk to me unless I talk to you first and clearly I don't have a problem not talking to you first so if you have one, just talk to me okay? Not showing any attitude btw, I'm a friendly girl! REALLY!! :D
Okay, done! Bye readers. I know there's some thanks to the live traffic feed at the right side of my blog. Thanks for spending time reading! I'll blog more often. Heh.
PS: I love all my friends who never walk away from me, no matter what I've changed.
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