Last Friday went peggy's house for the class BBQ. Had quite a lot of fun and took lots of pics. Will upload it the next time if possible because I'm uploading it in FB. Need quite some time to finish everything.
Had IBM test today. I swear I really did revised. It just that I just can't seem to put everything into my head. So halfway through the test I thought of giving up. While others were thinking about how to answer the question, I'm thinking about the consequences of not handing up my paper. In the end, I just kept my paper in my bag and walked out. 'It's just a test, a small test, he (the lecturer) won't realised I didn't hand up and even if he did, I'm going to say I didn't come on that day.' This is what that cross my mind and at that point of time, I really did convinced myself not to hand up the paper even though I've already written the intro. But I just can't remember anything else. I don't even thought of copying because I don't feel like copying. Maybe it's because I saw the guy sitting in front of me handed up his empty paper gave me the courage to make this decision. Simply, I've gave up totally without even trying.
*sign. This is so much like me in Msia but not the thing I'll do in Sg. (If you know what I meant) I really did tried to understand IBM and be a good student. But I just can't be one. Maybe I'm really not the student-type material. So pissed off with myself. Don't feel good now. NO. I feel bad. But the thing that makes me hate myself more is that even there's a second chance, I will do the same thing again, keep my paper in my bag and walked out.
Argh! FML. I'm so emo today.
PS: I smiled doesn't mean I feels good, is just means that I've hid my emotion well.
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