Things will change.

The feelings for you is gone now. But the feeling when I'm listening to this song won't change. I'm in love with this singer, khalil 方大同. The sweet and simple feeling, do you feel that too?

xianwen's late bday update! and a little of other stuffs!

25th June is xianwen's birthday celebration party at dhoby ghaut! Her actual birthday is on the 26th. So this is some group photo we took while we're there.

My clique of friends! From the left to right, marian, zhiping, carmen, me, xianwen, cheryl, peggy, qilu and jacelyn!


individual shot!

me with make up. look quite weird huh?

my new flats. very classy and elegant. HAHAHA.

I love AB (artbox). LOL. my work uniform.

Last but not least, xiaoyuan with me! She been sleeping with me for the past 1 week. Everyday before we sleep we always talk till one of us drop dead. HAHAHA. Don't know why we have so much to say. The last day she sleep with me, we talk for the whole night till 6am! I've never talk to the same person for so long before, from the moment we're awake till 6am man! This is taken at MBS. Notice my long bangs? Gonna trim them soon. Teehee.

Sorry for the short update! I'm gonna eat dinner soon. Byeeeee!

PS: I've changed my blog url again.

I've spent more time working than sleeping nowadays.

So I'll try to enjoy work to feel happy everyday! *smiles.

But working at Artbox can be very tiring also. The first reason is the long working hours (from 12pm-10pm++ or sometimes 12pm-5pm), even though we can have 1 or 2 meals in between but standing for so long even my feet scream in protest! No leaning on walls and strictly no sitting inside the shop. Not really complaining but this is really the most tiring job I've ever did. Never mind the mentally and physically tiredness, the second reason is due to weird customers that ask questions and always ignored us when we tried to serve them. Excuse me, I have feelings too if you realised! And don't ask me why is our things so expensive, I'm not the one who set the price. Don't complain it to me, I can't change anything anyway. !@#$#@$!$@#@!#!#!@#!!!! And the worst thing that happen to me during work is a weird middle-aged uncle walk in to our shop without wearing any pants! Just a long tee with underwear. Tsk tsk tsk. Dirty old man! Maybe he thought me and li li will scream or shout since the whole shop is empty except for the 2 of us and him. But we continued with our work and acted busy to even look at him. What's wrong with uncles nowadays? *shakes head. Unbelievable this type of things will happen in a shopping mall in Singapore. LOL. But on the other side ..... there's this super chio bu guy that came into our shop and OMFG! the way he talks and blinks his eyes makes all my bones go soft and almost stop my heart from beating. WOW! Now I know what they meant by dazzling eyes. He's really a gentleman with all the manners and the way he talks is so gentle. Makes you think all those guys who talks loudly sounds like swearing rudely. Oh, back to topic, the third reason is because I've only got 1-2 days off in a week and I normally have to work at 12pm which means I have to wake up around 10am. Too early, too early. The forth reason is there's people stealing from our shop! Walao eh! Here is Singapore eh! Don't you realised how risky it is to steal in such a small country with no where to hide? LOL. This is a very serious problem as we will have to pay for all the 'disappeared' items with our money. Fifth reason is I'm so bored of eating in jp now. Everyday have to think of how to settle my meals and fill up my stomach.

But still work can be fun because I got to know lots of people in jp. I've never had lots of friends when I'm in Msia, but now ... I have quite a large clique of friends from sim and now from artbox too. I thought I'm that kind of people that would rather stay at home and watch pps than going out with friends. But now I'll go out with friends almost every week when I have a day off. What changes me? Idk. Anyway I'm content with my life now.

Oh, wonder why I'm blogging now at this time? Because finally I'm having a day off this week. HAHAHAHA. After working for 6 days straight, tomorrow I'll sleep till my stomach become untolerable hungry. And after waking and eating I'll have to go shopping and search for a new shoes that can match with the dress xw lend me to go to her birthday party this Saturday. Time pass so fast, it's almost end of June now. Pay day is coming nearer! Luckily I have a choice to choose if I want CPF or not. With CPF, my pay will be lower. I NEED CASH NOW, can't risk to 'save' my pay for the future.

PS: Seriously I love my life now. With all the laughs and tiredness during work makes my life feels so whole. Teehee.

You took my heart but luckily I've got it back.

I know I can't take one more step towards you
'Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?
You lost the love I loved the most

And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

...

When I'm all bored and have no one to talk to,

I'll blog. HAHAHA.

There's a lot need to be updated but my brain doesn't seem to have the extra space to remember all the details. ): Hates to blog when I've neglect my blog for long and need to recall everything. Too bad I just don't have the America time to blog everyday. And worst, my lappy is getting older and slower every single day. Makes blogging a tedious thing to do! ._.

And oh, xianwen's birthday is coming and she's gonna celebrate it on the day before which is 25th this month. Just realised it clash on the day of my high sch gathering. But of course with so much work I won't be able to go back malaysia and gather with them. Ohya, my NS friends are also gathering together on the 3rd July. Won't be going back either. *sigh. Lost the passion about going back to malaysia. I wonder why~

Btw, xiaoyuan is staying with me, sharing my bed too. So lucky I'm not studying oversea alone without my family. At least I don't need to worry about finding a place to stay.

PS: I need to put on braces ASAP! *desperate.

背叛

The song that reflect my feeling now. Deep inside I'll still mind but on the second thought why should I? I'm just pure disappointed I guess because I just can't squeeze out a single tear to prove I'm sad or hurt. Maybe I should say you caught me by surprise. Didn't know you'll do this to me like any other guy, but you delayed till a year later. I didn't choose this song because I felt you betrayed me, is because the feeling I felt when I first heard this with you. Is the same feeling I'm feeling now. The dead and gone feeling. You're right, you'll never changed, I've think too highly of myself like any other stupid girl.

PS: If I were to see you again, I want to tell you this straight in your face, 'Heys, I don't love you anymore.'

Struggling hard.

Is really busy with work nowadays. Finally had a day off today thus I'm blogging now to update about my recent life. Gonna work tomorrow from 5pm-10pm and Saturday 12pm-10pm. Seriously I don't think my legs can support my weight for such a long time without sitting so I'm trying to cut some fats now to lighten the work of my poor legs. Doubt I've have muscles soon! *mad worrying! But at least I have a job and very soon I'll have my first income! I've never really work after working as waitress when I'm around 16 or 17. HAHAHA. At least this is a easy job for me. All I have to do is smile and STAND for a few hours! But not a very high pay job though. Never mind, as long as there's no stress, no pressure, what's more can I demand? Ha ha ha.

Everyone around me is working so hard now so it's getting harder to find time and meet up with friends, but what's making it worst is the objection of my legs for walking. I can not imagine how I'm going to stand the pain of standing in the train back home after shopping before my legs finally snap into half. Sound exaggerating but it's true! Evident of getting older I think. *sigh.

Still thinking if I should take tuition as my other part time job. Teaching lower pri kids Chinese shouldn't be too hard for me but I'm afraid to cope with the stress and pressure from their parents. I'm not a good student so I doubt I can be a good teacher. LOL!

Parents are going back Msia soon and when they're back, it's meichyi's turn to go and she's bringing her carmen back with her to stay with us when she's coming back. Should be quite fun with her around but I'm going to be working madly to enjoy her holiday with her here! How sad.

WOW! This is a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong update. Didn't realised I have that much to be updated. And oh, I've dye my hair dark brown. Did I mention that? Think I look much younger with a dark coloured hair! (living in my own world). Teehee!

PS: You took all my memories away with you. Thanks and I owe you one.